Monday, May 29, 2006
Its been a long time....
hello ppl,
well it has been a long time since i updated. hahaha well my holidays have been great so far. played for the Man of letters, movies, outings, birthdays, etc. yup.
school is goin to satrt in a weeks time and i am all set for schoolo man. can't wait so that i can finsh my diploma and get on with my life. but above all i'll be too busy to think about H. hahhaa yup i think i really have to stop thinking so much. well today i woke up at about 430am in the morning. the first think i tot was H. sigh not sure why but i had a weird dream that H like found out that i liked her. hahaha funny right. then the dream became a nightmare when H decided to avoid me forever. sigh. that is what i want to avoid thats why i don't want to ever ever tell her. maybe in ten years... maybe. hahaa
H has been quite impossible to predict recently. i have a feeling she knows but i am still keeping my stand. in the recent month, i have asked her out to dinner, movie, luch, etc... but not a single yes. H has denied me so many times this month ands i feel lost in my own mind. i don't know where i came in and how to leave this crazy mind of mine. i am really grateful that she still talks to me online but even that, she is seldom online. sigh. i think she is preparing to leave the country but i guess its best especially for me.
in the course of knowing H, i have been inspired to be a better person bothe mentally, and emotionally but yet i am weakened by her very smile. funny how something so innocent and least appreciated can be so deadly yet charming. yes, i was charmed by the smile H gave to me the very first time and it is this smile that weakens me when i see it. y? i don't know. hahaa
sigh sigh sigh
H is great regardless ahhaa i think i am crazy. i am going to be seperated with H for like about a few years. she will be studying overseas and not sure when she'll come back and i will too after my NS and not sure if i'll ever come back. this year could be the last i see her. that frightens me alot and have been giving me many sleepless nights recently. i was counting the years i might be apart and it turns out, about ten years. that is really long and anything.... anything can happen. sigh. i do hope our lifes cross path again in the future cause i enjoyed knowing H and would like to know H fully.
ever wondered what and where you'll be in ten years? have a moment to think about it. its quite frigtening.
its difficult to be in silence for so long and even worst when you have to hide your true feelings behide a fake smile. all to just please the ppl around you. i am very troubled but seek comfort in composition and movies and other stuff. but then i ask myself again, how long can i hide and seek comfort? not very long. i am reaching a breaking point but thankfully i am still in control of my feelings. saw H last week after a week of silence from her. I was overjoyed to see her sweet smile and bright gleaming Chocolate-brown eyes (i know like very delicious right). we greeted in silence but i knew what she was thinking, "why did you shave?" hahahaa i know her too well. hahahaa and yes indeed she then walked up to me and asked that question ahhaa.
difficult...
confusing...
troubled...
chocolate-brown eyes....
sigh sigh sigh.
random words
no sence
to me
THE WORLD
SMILE PPL!!!!!
CHOWS~
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Thursday, May 25, 2006
Makes no sence!!?!?!?!?!
I woke up this morning to receive news that Ike was not granted deferment. this is the forum letter. pls read.
May 25, 2006
No NS deferment for violinist Ike to study in US institute
I REFER to the letters 'Give Ike a chance to pursue his dreams' and 'Mindef should grant teen violinist NS deferment' (ST, May 17).
Under the Enlistment Act, all male Singaporeans and Permanent Residents are liable to serve National Service upon reaching 18 years of age. However, Mindef has exercised flexibility by not insisting that all NS-liable males enlist immediately upon turning 18.
In determining when a person is to be enlisted, Mindef considers two main factors: the need to preserve equity in terms of educational attainment before NS, and the need to enlist NS-liable males for rigorous military training while they are young and fit.
Mindef has therefore allowed students to attain educational qualifications up to 'A' level, polytechnic diploma or their equivalent before requiring them to serve NS.
Students taking up such courses may be granted deferment from NS for a reasonable amount of time until the completion of their courses.
NS-liable males will therefore be enlisted at the earliest opportunity after turning 18 (of pls he is only 17 this year) or when they have finished such courses.
Mindef is prepared to grant deferment to pursue university studies under very exceptional circumstances.( Like!!!!!!?!?!?!?!!) Such cases are rare and can only be considered when there are exceptionally strong reasons.
Mindef has to ensure that the principle of equity is upheld when considering applications for deferment so as to uphold the commitment of the vast majority who dutifully fulfill their NS obligations before pursuing university studies.
This issue was thoroughly debated in Parliament in March and the principles under which equity is maintained for national service were reaffirmed.
In the case of See Ian Ike, Mindef has given due consideration to his appeal. However, we are unable to accede to his request for deferment to pursue his university studies before NS.
To do so would be unfair to others who have put their personal aspirations and goals on hold to serve NS when called upon to do so.
Mr See may wish to consider applying to enlist for NS earlier, under Mindef's Voluntary Early Enlistment Scheme (VEES).
This will allow him to complete his full-time NS earlier and proceed for further studies thereafter. He may contact the Central Manpower Base at 63733120.
Col Benedict Lim Director,
Public Affairs Ministry of Defence
It saddens me as a friend to see or read this. I still feel that they have not looked into the matter in a deeper broder picture. (pls take note of the highlights) IT JUST MAKES NO SENCE!!!!!
MINDEF MAKES ME SICK!!!!!!!
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Wednesday, May 24, 2006
It pisses me off....
When you need someone to talk to, you come to me, I give you my undivided attention. When you need help in somthing, you come to me, I help you, no strings attached. but why is it you treat me like yesterday's lunch.? When i talk to you, you shut me off by looking away. when i ask fro help, i have to ask like 3-5 times before i even hear an answer. frankly speaking, its pissing me off. if you know who you are, DO SOMETHING about it!!!! or i will. sorry to be so LOUD.
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What does it really mean and feel like?
Hello ppl,
well I went out with H just the other day and once again i was captivated by the simple thing called a smile. well to some its nothing much but to me its the world. well, not sure if i am crazy but here goes. anyway, i was out with H and went for dinner and had a good dinner i think hahaa. well we shared some of the recent happenings in our lives. but it was then i took particular attention to her Smile and i was totally blown away. i felt like dying man. hmm its the kind of smile that when you see, you feel all soft inside, your legs feel weak, your heart warms and your mind goes blank and above all you feel that everything in live will be alright and there no problems anymore. hmmm quite a mouthfull huh...ahhahaa well that was what i was feeling.
I do feel sad that H is attached but again just like with L, i accepted it and life goes on you know. anyway till now H has no clue of my feelings anyway she's going off sooon and i would not want to bother her with what i feel. i think it will die off when shes gone. hmmm will it? i really don't know i guess.
H is just so special in that her carismah just shines so brightly, making everyone around her feel good inside. hmm. she is an angel on earth man hahahaa. now i can safely say that i have seen an angel for real hahaha anyway sorry to alwyas talk about H here but i guess i have no where else to express my feelings hee hee
sorry.
CHOWS~
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Monday, May 22, 2006
Let him Go Lah!!!!
Here is the forum discussions for the Deferemnt of Violin Prodigy See Ian Ike. Such Talent need to be allowed to "Fly" pls read and pass it on guys. the sack of Musicians and justice to them in you the power of the people. this conutry to nothing withour its ppl and so i like others here am joining in this fight or voicing out for all musicians.
ST Forum Page, May 17, 2006
National Service deferment: S'pore will gain by letting gifted young people develop their talents abroadI'm a friend of See Ian Ike's. I was with him in Raffles Institution when we were taking part in the school's Music Elective Programme (MEP).I have seen him perform in the National Arts Council's (NAC) piano and violin competition many times. I can testify that he has an incredible amount of talent and skill with the violin.My word is not the only support he has - the awards and the invitations from distinguished music schools such as Juilliard and the Peabody Conservatory of Music speak for themselves.I only want to write to say that perhaps the government should consider giving Ian Ike a chance to develop himself and making an exception when dealing with National Service deferment.I do not mean to belittle the national army of Singapore or National Service. I firmly believe in the competence of our army as well as the need for National Service.Besides, Ian Ike does not rule out doing his National Service completely. He only wishes to defer his enrolment in the army on the ground that he must take up this 'once-in-a-lifetime opportunity' to study in the prestigious Curtis Institute of Music in the United States.What I wish to say is this: If Ian Ike is enrolled in the army, he will become merely another soldier fighting for Singapore. Not that being a soldier is not an honourable profession, but he will become another statistic in the numbers of men who enlist for their term of service, another rifle-bearing military man, another trooper on land, sea or in the air.I understand that the main reaction may well be why I am making such a fuss. After all, he can apply for a music school after finishing his term of national service since he is so talented.However, as a fellow amateur musician, I can testify that regular, constant practice and regular coaching is required to maintain a high level of musical competency.Ian Ike understands this, and that is the reason why he quit his studies under the Raffles Programme. Two years given to the service of Singapore would be years well spent but they could also mean his musicianship is somewhat affected.And when he applies for a place in an international, prestigious music school such as Curtis Institute, places which are fought over by musically-gifted students from all over the world, he could be disadvantaged.Ian Ike's achievement in securing a place in Curtis Institute is wonderful simply because enrolment in such an institution is a highly valued achievement among aspiring musicians.Singapore would benefit in the long run if Ian Ike is allowed to go abroad and complete his musical education now. With our country developing the music scene as part of our goal to become an arts hub, Ian Ike could act as our ambassador when abroad, a testament to the vitality of the Western classical music scene in Singapore.By allowing Ian Ike to continue his musical development uninterrupted, the music scene is likely to reap huge returns when he comes back and starts work, of course after doing his National Service.Perhaps Singapore would benefit in the long run if we allow gifted young people who are passionate about what they want to do to develop their talents and complete their education so that they can act as ambassadors of the rich culture in our society.Ian Ike may be a future soldier but he is a civilian soldier and he will be able to contribute to society far more as a civilian in terms of the culture and image of Singapore than as a soldier.I ask the government to seriously consider allowing him to defer his National Service. I have faith that Ian Ike, with his talent, grit and hard work will do Singapore proud.
Arunn Jothidas
ST Forum Page, May 17, 2006
Musical talent should be nurtured from a very young age, especially for prodigiesAs a music teacher, my view is that a student who is serious about music and has decided to pursue music should do it at as young an age as possible, like in the early teens.This is especially if they have already exhibited strong talent and acumen all round. See Ian Ike could have gone to further his music studies at a very young age like Lee Huei Min, Gabriel Ng and Claire Yeo to name a few.Ian Ike was spotted by a retired American conductor at the age of 11. The conductor offered to send him to Dorothy Delay, who was then still alive and was the master teacher at Julliard Conservatory.However, as his parents were not in a position to uproot the whole family, it never happened. When he was 12, another American teacher who taught at the Julliard prodigy programme took an interest in Ian Ike, but again for the same reason, he did not leave Singapore.It is a known fact that any musical talent should be nurtured at a very young at age and a musical child who has proven to have much potential through his successful concerts, diplomas and winning music competitions should be given proper intensive training as early as possible.This is so that the young nimble fingers and hands of a budding musician may be fully and properly developed.If a prodigy does not come from a rich family, the child will have to earn his way to an overseas music education by getting a scholarship. After many years of hard work, it seems that Ian Ike is now faced with the prospect of having to give up his overseas scholarship as the National Service deferment policy at Mindef has changed.At this point, I would not and cannot with good conscience encourage any young Singaporean to be a performer even if he or she has great potential like Ian Ike to pursue music.
Sylvia Khoo (Ms)(First violin teacher of See Ian Ike)
ST Forum Page, May 17, 2006
Mindef should grant teen violinist NS defermentI READ with great pride of the prestigious scholarship offered by the Curtis Institute of Music to violinist Ike See. Only two other Singaporeans have attended the institute in Singapore's post-independence years.If Ike is not granted deferment from national service, he would likely lose his present level of skills.Having served NS, I feel it is all right that the rest of us NSmen 'hold the fort' until he has finished his overseas stint. However, Ike must be made to return to Singapore to serve NS without exception, and undertake not to renounce his Singapore citizenship prior to serving NS.Better still, make him perform for the listening pleasure of all NSmen and Singaporeans as part of his NS obligations.I am very sure Singaporeans and our system have matured enough to allow a little discretionary flexibility for the sake of nurturing a rare talent.
Yuen Kwong Chow
ST Forum Page, May 17, 2006
Give Ike a chance to pursue his dreamsI READ with dismay that 17-year-old violinist Ike See may have to turn down a scholarship to study at the prestigious Curtis Institute of Music in the United States because he has been denied deferment from national service.I have had the honour to witness Ike play (and conduct) on many occasions - charity events, chamber recitals, symphonic concerts, competitions (from which he emerged champion three times) and masterclasses. The standard and maturity of his musicality is unlike that of any other young musician I have seen.The combination of sheer musical talent and skill, diligence and unassuming personality is probably the reason why he is one of the few Singaporeans to be accepted into the Juilliard School, Peabody Conservatory, New England Conservatory and Curtis Institute of Music. To have been offered a US$114,000 (S$182,400) scholarship to study at the latter just goes to show how bright a future Ike has and how much faith professional musicians from the West have in wanting to nurture this bright talent from Singapore.Abigail Sin, Clare Yeo, Gabriel Ng and Loh Junhong have all been given a chance to pursue their dreams. They have even had their experiences glorified and sensationalised by the media. How is Ike any different? Because he is a more mature, less affluent, male Singaporean?Will letting one young man have his national service deferred for a few years be a detriment to the country? Why must Ike's loyalty to his country be placed in doubt, and why should he be treated like a potential Melvyn Tan? To quote the boy himself, 'I understand that serving my nation is important and I will do so eventually.'I would be very perturbed if Ike has to give up the opportunity of a lifetime in his prime because of some red tape in a conscription policy.It is not enough to build a conservatory, put on concerts and say we support youths and the arts. Show it.
Wong You Min
ST Online Forum May 17, 2006
Mindef should review NS deferment policy, make exceptions for the exceptionally giftedGifted individuals such as violinist See Ian Ike are not born everyday and when we do have one, we should treat him with special care and consideration.This is especially so in a country as small as Singapore. When rare individuals like these are found amongst our midst we should celebrate and rejoice.If the Singapore stage is not sufficiently big or not ready to hold them, we should have the broadness of mind to release them to the world where their special gifts can be developed to the fullest and where they can use their talents to contribute to the field of their expertise.I have two boys, one of whom is currently in National Service. While supporting National Service and recognising its importance, I also believe that for gifted individuals like See Ian Ike, we should also recognise that they possess a special gift that is to be shared with the rest of the world.Since the Singapore stage is not the place where their potential can be realised, not at this time anyway, we should not hinder them simply because of our policy on National Service.These are obviously exceptional individuals who deserve exceptional consideration. For such individuals, the world is their stage and I feel that if they do not eventually come back to Singapore because the stage is not big enough yet, we should still wish them well and be proud that we have a Singapore son out there making a difference to the world.We should just hope that perhaps the day will come when we are more ready for them and when we have a big enough stage, they will someday want to return home to make a contribution in the field that they are gifted in.Singapore will not be worse off by making exceptions to allow individuals like See Ian Ike to defer National Service, but the world of music will be worse off when we deprive it of a gifted individual like him.I therefore call on Mindef to review its policy and make the exception for See Ian Ike to pursue his music career and not hinder his development by insisting that he stays back to serve National Service now.
Larry Lai Chong Tuck
ST Online Forum, May 18, 2006
Completing his NS might cost Ike opportunities to be a top musicianI have known Ike See since he was eight. This little boy grabbed my soul when he performed Beethoven's Romance In F for the Associated Board of Royal School of Music High Scorers concert. He played with such soul and conviction that it brought tears to my eyes. Since then I have kept up with his progress and I have never been disappointed with any of his performances.There are many technicians out there who can play brilliantly and impressively but few can touch the soul like Ike. The gift to elevate the audience is what makes music so special. People go to concerts to listen to music not just to be entertained but to experience the wonderful feeling of being enriched and inspired.I am a violinist myself and the director and principal of Mandeville Music School. I attend concerts all the time and it is a rare treat to have an elevating experience. However, Ike's performances have always been meaningful to me.I was terribly disappointed to read the news about Ike in The Straits Times on Monday. I now understand why his parents and teacher did not want to break the good news to me when I asked them about Ike's auditions in the US. It is no use telling people that he has been accepted into all the top music colleges when he cannot go because he has to serve national service first.It is very prestigious to be selected for Curtis Institute. It would be every musician's dream come true and anyone who can get in there is already very accomplished and all set for the world platform. This is the only top music school in the US where all selected are on full scholarship.I encouraged Ike to audition three years ago as this school only accepts young students. He tried two years ago but was not accepted although he was one of the few finalists. I am so proud that he got in on the second try. He had worked very hard in the last two years. Twelve out of 12 judges voted him in this time.If Ike doesn't accept their offer this round, I do not think he will be able to get in after his national service as he would be too old by then. This poor boy would be so disappointed and his hopes of becoming a world-class violinist would be shattered.Ike might still choose to be a musician in the end, but he would likely have lost many opportunities to be at the top. In the competitive music world, age makes a big difference.Singapore has always been proud to show off its achievements. Why waste a truly homegrown talent now? Ike will serve Singapore even better when he proves to the world that we are able to produce such a remarkable musician. He will surely do us Singaporeans proud and would be the best ambassador of the arts for us.
Yap Shu Mei (Ms)Director/PrincipalMandeville Music School
ST Online Forum, May 18, 2006
Can the authorities chart a path for male prodigies like Ike See in Singapore so they can maximise their potential?I write in support of Ike See's appeal for NS deferment and hope the prior Melvyn Tan episode has not caused Mindef to paint with a broad brush henceforth.If the concern is over the possibility of Ike's non-return following his studies, there are other ways to address this adequately such as calling for additional guarantors or perhaps increasing the security bond. At least this gives his family and friends an opportunity to rally around him. It opens the door for a talented young man to become the best that he can be, to make his country proud and to prove his commitment to his nation.If the issue is one of equity and universality, perhaps there is room for an alternative view.First, it seems incongruent and inequitable that as many as 30 male government scholars, among the best and brightest of each cohort in Singapore, may be accorded special consideration while a younger, prodigious talent like Ike is denied the same opportunity to pursue his degree before enlistment.Second, by using educational level instead of age as a cut-off criteria for enlistment, Singapore risks the effects of a policy which levels downwards instead of upwards. Current guidelines permit a 20-year-old ITE student to be deferred and further enrol in a three-year diploma programme in the name of equity. However, exceptionally gifted students are restrained from racing ahead of their peers. They are forced to idle, to wait for their age to catch up, since they cannot enrol for a university degree and are too young to be soldiers.Is this really the desired principle of equity in practice? If the exceptional talent of one such as Ike is being compromised as a result of the new policy, is this not an inequity in itself and a loss to the nation?With respect to maximising the limited world-class musical talents that Singapore can hope to throw up, can the Ministry of Education and/or the Ministry of Information, Communications and the Arts chart a path for such male prodigies in Singapore? Ike is the first male Singaporean to be admitted to Curtis. May he not be the last lest we become known as a nation that churns out social musicians by the tens of thousands yet not one male Singaporean who is truly world-class.Andrew Kwan Kok Tiong
ST Online Forum, May 18, 2006Let Ike See leave for music studies after completing basic military trainingI join other letter writers asking Mindef to show some flexibility in allowing talented violinist Ike See to defer his national service.Since last December, Mindef has stopped permitting deferments for those who want to pursue a university degree, be it local or overseas. I am sure this policy is to deter absconding. However, I urge Mindef to review this particular case as it warrants special consideration.To be offered a prestigious scholarship by the Curtis Institute of Music speaks volumes about Ike's talents.In his National Day Rally Speech last year, PM Lee Hsien Loong spoke about 'remaking Singapore together' and 'to tap everybody's contributions (and) to maximise each person's talents, open(ing) up opportunities for all'. This is the best opportunity for the young violinist to learn from the best in the world and to maximise his talent.Pursuing music is unlike studying for a conventional degree. Just as Ms Sylvia Khoo (ST Online, May 17) has pointed out, age is an important factor in the development of a musical talent. It is crucial that Ike be nurtured into a world-class musician by the best in this field at the right time and in the right place.You can study for a business degree at 30 years of age and still do well, but it is highly unlikely that one can train to become a world-class musician at that age.Having said this, in no way should Ike be excused from his NS obligations. The young man knows it himself. After all, he has said: 'I understand that serving my nation is important and I will do so eventually.'May I suggest the following?Should Ike be certified as combat fit, allow him to leave for his studies after the completion of his basic military training.Assign him a mentor during his period overseas, just like the current practice for some scholars. The mentor will keep in touch with him, guide and advise him along the way. This will also serve to remind him the importance of serving his country.Allow him to discharge some of his NS obligations during his vacations. This will help him keep in touch with Singapore.
Malcolm Loke Chee Fan
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Point to note and keep in mind:
"The Art of Buffet: All you need is a cup and a Fork...let the Fork do the talking. Do't Waste Time Q-ing"
-Alan
Dean of the School of Intelligent Consumption
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Great Musical
ahaha its finally over man. 3 weeks of long reheasals and un-organise scores. hmmm this experience was enriching for me. firstly got to play for a musical and thus broaden my musical abilities and experience. and most importantly of all i got to know three wonderful ppl better. namely Leen, Ike and Hatim. Leen was cool, all the crapping sessions bitching ans learninf the wonders of the triangle and the pedalling stuff. thanks for the crazy shouting game you tot us ahaha loved it. and then there is Hatim, thanks for the car rides and all the funny stuff we talked on the way. learned alot about you and how cool you are. great knowing you better. and there is ike. tot he was a snob but turns out to be really nice hearted and cool too. not your typical RI boy/nerd. ahahhahaa great friend you have becoome and enjoyed all the funny jokes we made in the pit when the musical was going on. ahahhaha will never forget that. and yes also found out his secert. ahahaa don worry we'll keep it to ourself hahaha
anyway altohough we do see each other for every rehearsal during SNYO, but i guess we will never have this kind of fun again. well i enjoyes your company and the fun we'ev had and yes i have gotten to know you guys better. i do hope this keeps on guys hahaa.
whos kows in ten years time we'll meet again ansd sing the tunes of Man of Letters hahaa omg i am going to cry. take care guys.
CHOWS~
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Sunday, May 21, 2006
I feel like dying
well today is the last day for the Man of Letters musical and i am feeling the meaning of the musical. this one week has brought me both sadness and happiness. in waht way i can't say but it did. i have also gotten to know my SNYO friends better. like Hatim's background and his life etc. during alll those car rides...(thnaks man!!!) and also got to know Leen better hahahaa she reminds me of a friend i had a long time ago but due to misunderstandings, parted. all the bitching sessions and eating and all the silly snap games hahahaa cool. then got to know Ike better too. turns out he's not that bad and not a snob as i tot he was. hmmm i know that we'll all see each other during reheasal and al but i don't think it will be as close as now. hmmm. i must sayni have grown fond of these guys and it would be difficult to "part" he ehee i know so Emo right. but i am.
anyway this musical was fun and i do not regret taking it. it has given me something to do in the holidays ahaha no lah. through the story, i think i am like Ming. i do not dare tell the one i love how much i love her. hmmm. and also Ming, in the musical, only tells here after many years. sigh. I don't think i'll ever tell H how i feel mainly because H is attached and also too good for me. hahahahaa I might tarnish her image you see. anyway H is leaving the country soon to study abroad. I am happy for her and also i will not think about her so much and also i can forget this love i have for her. hmmm.. this has ispired me to write a new piece for the SNYO compo competition. I can't wait to get started. hahahaa.
H is really special to me. and i can't denie that. I may not tell her but i can always admire her from far, far and in a safe distance so as not to frigthen her away.
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Thursday, May 18, 2006
Finally updating
hello dear readers,
well it has been a long time since i updated ha ha. well there have been many long and late night rehearsals and i hardly have time to come to school and cheak mail and nblog. well today i mangaed to wake up earlier to come and blog haha lame i know.
well got a few thinngs on my mind rrecently i would say.
well i am not sure how many ppl know about the child prodigy See Ian Ike's issuse wiht his deferment but heres what i have to say. Firstly this is a country built on human labour and resources. all males born in this contry must eventually serve their NS as part of their duty to their country. All Ike was asking that it be defered so as to be able to pursue a life long, one-in-a-lifetime oppurtunuity of studying with the greats at Curtis institue of Music in the US. Such talent is truly RARE in this country so why is the govermentnot seeing this??? he will carry the naitions name with him and be a great musician and an ambassdor to the world. What is the point of building an arts city, and "Durian", concerts, arts festival when there is no solid support of the art or should i say MUSIC in particular. such talent should fly into the world and be someone great. Ike truly has a God given Gift that many musican only dream to have. yet the humblness is not far behind this young person. MINDEF should truly consider his deferment, for the sake of this coutry and for MUSIC and MUSICIAN in SIngapore.
anywya musican will tell you that, it takes hard work and long hours of practice to perfect our art. and art form that is slowly fading in Singapore.
anyway another thought in my mind was about Gays and Lesbians in this world. well i would like to just say that, THEY ARE HUMANS TOO!!!! i mean why do ppl look at them differently. they have eyes, ears, a brian, nose, heart etc. just like every other hum,an being. well i was thinking about this because of how one of my friends said to a buch of ppl who were very "wrong" . hmm. well i would testify this "Gays and Lesbians are one of the Best freinds you'll ever meet in your life." and i stand by what i say no matter what. causei have wondeful friends that are like this. i don't have a problem with it at all just do tell me and extreme stuff hee hee.
well recently i have taken a emaotional journey. one that i regret taking. I have been thinking about H too much man. even as much as i try to avoid H and thinking about H, H just haunts me. before i sleep , i see H in my mind, the momenst i wake up i think H. WHY!!?!?!?!?!! i did not ask for this yet i am so deep in this. as if it cannot get worst, the Musical i am playing for, "MAn of Letters" is a love story that is very similar to my life and how i feel. i can'tr help but feel the meaning of the text and songs of this musical. its really hard to play and hold in your feelings. H makes me feel happy everytime i see H. but yet i do not wnat to spoil it by telling her. hmmm sigh. i just want to forget H and get on with my life. i know its not possible. i rather keep this distance and safe that H is there when i need her better then H avoiding me. sigh sigh triple sigh. Why is it so difficult to forget someone you are so in love with. everytime H talks to me or gets close, i feel this hevenly warmth in H's hands and eyes. it just brigthens up my life and keeps me alive. H is the best thing that has happened so far. somtimes i try forgeting H but soomthing tells me for the back of my head "you know you can't forget H, so why try to forget." hmm... well i am so confused and stressedover this.
and if anyone is curious, H is not very hot looking babe. i look for the chracter and heart. H has a good heart, full of love, compassion and care for the ppl around her. and most of all an undying passion for music. H is so perfect and that i feel crimpled when i stand next to H. sigh. Love sucks man...manybe thats why it last so long. sigh. H.
well thats all for now. i'll upodate when i can yah.
CHOWS~
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Friday, May 12, 2006
Free MONEY!!!!
Well you remember the machine with the free snacks??? yah yesterday it gave Leen money...like WTH!!!!! hahahahaa so ccol man hahaha wonder what it'll give us next??? hahahaa tune in guys for "Revenge of the Ever-so-Giving-Snack-Machine" hhahahahahahahaa.
well this is a short entry hee hee
CHOWS~
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Thursday, May 11, 2006
How does your SMS affect others on the recieving end???
Hello,
well here's a thought that i had when i was watching TV in the morning. I was wondering out of blue, how do ppl actually react to your msgs you send. i mean have you ever wondered? if you send a smiley face, does the person really think you are happy or alright. if they send you a sentencce with an exclamtion mark, does it mean they'er shouting or angry. i mean SMS carry alot of false feelings and impression. so then how do we different shade them? frankly speaking, i don't know. well anyway i brought this up because, someone SMSed in the morning and the msg was quite a turn off and a disappointment. so i was quite upset, not angry but rather upset and in sad. so instead of voicing my unhappiness i sent a smiley face to this person said it was alright. and the person had the impression i was fine with the answer. well... theroy proven. i did not do this on purpose but rather i noticed this. hmmm...so becarful what you send and always think about the person on the recieving end ok. hee hee.
anyway yesterday had NUS rehearsal again but his time it was cool and fun in a way. well firstly i came to reheaersal with Leen and we were talking about weird bus experineces hahahaa funny stories man. then we got to rehearsal and got ready etc. then before reherasal i was hunfry and so me and Leen went to the Candy machine and decided to get stuff to eat. and yes it was $$ hee hee. so i put in a $0.50 and the screen showed $1.70. hmmm i wondered to myself and me and Leen were like huh?? then i just pushed a button at random and the candy fell out hee hee COOL!!!!!! hahahaha then i was like "ok...why not i try that again but with no cash" ahahhaha BINGO another one ahahhaa then we tried another button and YES success another one ahhahahahhaha we strike a gold pot ahahahhaa so we decided to keep it a secert. ahhahaa BUT FAILED..... during the dinner break we told Ike and Hatim and we like getting Chocolates for FREE ARGHHHHHH!!!!!! so cool man ahhahaa all in totaly we tookm 2 snikers bars and 7 M&M peanut Chocos hee hee ahhahahahaa So fun ahhaha so today we'er going to try our lucj again and see what we get ahaha maybe Leen will get her stupid peanut biscuit thingy...hahahaha wish luck AHAHAHHAHAAa
yup thats all for now actually hee hee
CHOWS~
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Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Bad recital....
Everything that could go wrong went wrong. sigh. i did my part, practiced and played to the best of my ability. Well whilst i was playing, i could hear how terrible i sound man. i felt like giving up and just stop and say forget it i quit. but of course i did not. as if it was not bad enough that stupid ass-of-a-teacher had to give alll kinds of faces. does he even know how F***ing distratcting it is to the student who is doing the exam. i mean why can't he be like the other examiner, just keep quite and look at the score and don't give any expression. sigh. i disappoint myself man and most of all my teacher. sigh. now i am wondering if i can be even promoted. well gettin an A is out of the question now. i trhink a B is also not possible. hmm...now i am wondering if i can even make it for all the other pieces i was planning for next year. ah yah.. i give up.
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Sunday, May 07, 2006
How do they do it.....? (confused)
Hello peeps,
well i am here on a sunday in school updating my blog hahahaa. anyway just ended rehearsal at 5pm at NUS. like so far man. anyway i am playing for the Musical "Man of Letters" by Dick Lee. the music is fine but still cluless about the story line. anyway rehearsal was ok ok only. there was a squable aboutt he different allowances ppl are getting. well i hope i don't get lesser. hee hee. anyway gave Ike his birthday present, hope he likes it. after rehearsal, went ot PS with Eileen to look for a belt....Like so boring right haahhaaa. anyway we went to watch the C.O.G ( Change of Guards) its a parade by the SAF ppl ahhahaa anyway both of us went to watch then decided to just walk walk at PS. hee hee went to Mos burger to get my fav. Vanilla Milk Shake. and hamburger ahhahaa. then me and Leen talked about Vienna and how the experinces were. so fun hee hee i Miss Vienna now even more. anyway yah to Leen...we should go out more often hee hee....don call Yun Qi ahahahahhahaa jkjk.
anyway hmmm met L sometime ago. and i must say L looks great nowadays. hmmm still think about L alot. to make things worst, i saw H this week and it was a mind blowing clash of feelings man. confused.
anyway i have been listening to lots of Violin concertos recently and i often end up thinking, how did these composers write so well, not a flaw in sight, the music flows so welll and effotlessly. when i see these compositions, i feel i can never write anything close to even one bar of these wonderful works of art. sigh. nowadays you hardly come across masterpieces man.
"Such wonderful Music, encased in writing, opened up by the sheer love of music" It is so hard to express even the simplest of melodies. take a listen at Kindertoten Lieder 3rd mvt by Mahler and listen tot he vocal line. its just plan crochets and minums. so simple and fragile yet a world of feelings and passion expressed in this simple line. and here i am trying to write a melody but always end up in failure. Why? i don't know. maybe i am just a bad composer. i wonder how the composition majore do it man, week after week. hmmm somthings i just will not know. i wish i had the genius of those great Romantic composers, especially like Liszt, Mendolssohn, Brahms, etc. all these wonderful masters of their craft.
i love the mendolssohn violin concerto, the brahms and Max concertos. they are so straight forward yet difficult to understand. sigh. anyway i will keep writing my trio and see where my music brings me. HELP!!!!!
sigh.
CHOWS~
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Thursday, May 04, 2006
Finding inspiration
Hello peeps,
well nothing much to update really. yesterday had the NUS reheasal. it was ok, Wan ping and I ended up laughing trough the whole reherasal and so did eileen. well basically the musci resembled chines drama shows, cheesy music and corcky melodies. hahahahahaa it was really funny man. ahhaa eben Ike was like laughing, i think the guy sitting at the 2nd violins think that
Ike likes him. cause when ike looks at my direction, he has to look in the direction of the 2nd violins. ahahaha too bad ahhahaha. anyway yah reherasal waas cool, nothing too boring. i think it was tolerable because of all the friends i have there. i tell you i get bored easily if i have no one to talk too. hee hee
anyway looking forward to the next rehearsal on sunday. tomorrow is Ike's birthday, so if you are readling this "HAPPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!" yup hee hee.
anyway started going with my compo. i would say its coming along just fine. i am finding emo hahahaa. i love my music and how it excites and feels inside of me hee hee. well i hope my piece gets choosen to be played hee hee. anyway i guess i am a long way from finshing, and thanks to Zeppy for the help and advice... hahahahaa. just a few more days and i am free hee hee. i can't wait for tuesday man. once i am done with my recital i am free, i can concetrate on my concerto concert and SNYO man hee hee.
hmm we'll wee the out come.... hhhahaa miss H alot sigh.
CHOWS~
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Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Fun Weekend
hello ppl,
well this past weekend was like the most relaxing one i have had for a long long time. on saturday, went to bugis with my friends to get pens ahhaha of all things. then went to our usual hang out to eat and catch up. on sundaym out of the blue i decided to go to orchard with Mad. hee hee had fun eating KFC, Famous Amos, then went into posh boutiques and pretend we could afford stuff from there hahaa. we went into GUCCI and Burberry ahahaha the feeling of buying expensive stuf... but no we did not buy anything...CRAZY AH!!!! i feel in love with this Burberry Jeans.....AH MY GOD!!!!! so cool...i want it hahaaa not going to tell you the price... anyway both Mad and i would like to get it hahaaa but i guess we will settle for somthing more affordable like Levi's or ebose...hmmm we'll see at the end of the year shopping spree we are planing. ahahhaa so fun
anyway my recital is comjng and hope to do well. yes just one more week and i am free. yup so thats all for now hee hee
CHOWS~
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