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Sunday, October 12, 2008 Food-filled October...

Well this October has been a Gastranomic one i would say. I had so many 'Catch-Up' Sessions i would call them. and all invovled two of my most favourite things to do...Friends and Food. hahaha yes they go so well together.

Many of my friends know i simply love chocolate and all things sweet. So it should come as no surprise that i went to the Fullerton for a Chocolate Buffet haha. It was Heaven i must say simply delightful. I was so choclate high and it had a great atmosphere and the company i was with was really divine. Here are some the pics...

I love the open space feel. It feels like you are outside but actually you are inside. haha. so nice.

The following day i met up with Kit and Nix for Lunch at Thai Xpress @ Tiong Bahru. It was fun to eat and gossip and catch up on what we have been up to lately. We also had our traditional desserts and more craziness happened..of course.

Had a Fun Shopping outing with Lau Li two days ago. It was just the two of us and it was so so fun to shop, bitch, share stories and eat. ahhaa i totally enjoyed that day. Thanks LauLi!!!

Well I really enjoyed the course of these few days. It was really fun and i wished i could do this everyday. just go out with friends and have fun all day long and have nothing to worry about.

Have you ever felt Envious of a certain situation? Like you see a certain situation/person and you in your own mind just wish you were there. I do not know how else to put in words but here goes. I am feeling Envy. Something i rarely feel or rather the last i probably felt like this was like years ago.

Why do i keep telling myself that it will be better when i know inside of me it is not going to.

Why do I chase the clouds when i know i cannot catch it.

Why do i put up with you when i know i am just going to get myself hurt again.

Why do i fall for your words when i do not know weather you really mean it.

So many questions in my head and no answer. I feel sick, i feel irritated, i feel like just cutting all forms of contact from you, i feel like crying so badly. I do not know why is it so difficult to bring it back to what it was all those years ago.

I feel like a spare...

CHOWS~

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Wednesday, October 01, 2008 When Will christmas be here..??

I'm sitting here infront of my com and listening Christmas music. Not sure why really. Don't calling me crazy...since when have you not known me to do stuff like this. There is just this calming and joyful feeling that Christmas songs that give that makes you all warm and fuzzy inside. I feel so so happy when i listen to this.

Be wanting to blog about alot of stuff, but just don't feel like. Been postponing it for so long.

I have be keeping feelings inside me these past few months. Feelings that could change alot of things. Feelings that many i feel won't really understand.

I have told this to a friend before and i tot maybe i share here. "It is the many thousands of small Threads that make the Beauty of a Persian Rug"
Nothing new i guess but to me it is a powerful. It is the small things that ppl do for you that more often then not goes forgotten. It is the small things that I feel, personally, that give the biggest impact in our lives.

While we go about our lives and do stuff we like, have we considered and tried to stop for a moment at think about the little things in our lives. For i often do this. In the moments that i stop and think i often play back situation that have haooened recently or Funny moments with friends or previous ugly incidents. Not sure why i do that but it almost happenes so fuently. like when i am at a rehearsal, i can easily start thimking about all of this...I know you could say it is Daydreaming. If it was i would have said it was daydreaming. but it is not. oh well.. randomness.

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If I had chance I would have choosen to walk away from you and I would not have to go through all the things i did with you. Despite all the happiness that you have given and showen me, there were twice as much sadness packed underneath it all. I'm Sorry for being Honest.

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About a month a go I went out with a small group of close friends. We went for a concert and the usual, we decided to go somewhere to eat and chill for a little while. After much arguing on where to go, we finally decided. We made our way there fast and yes we had our usual bags of laughter along the way. When we drove pass one particular street i just felt my heart sink and my goose bumps were all over the place. My mouth was frozen and my mind just went on a non-stop scroll mode. Scrolling through all the memeories both good and bad with this (once) close friend of mine. I can't help but feel sicken yet happy at the same time. Sicken because I remember ed all the shit and FUCKED up attitudes i got from you and happy cause i also remembered the feelings i had in those days where we just hung out aimlessly and enjoy each others company. It was a simple street nothing special but it was the moments that were just priceless. I told my friend to just get me out of that place and go somewhere else. I could not bare to be there for long. I will revisit this place again and face my past. I think that that is the only way i can find peace with that place.

Sometimes being alone is the best thing.... I only have one person to deal with.

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