Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Out of town
Well I'll be off too Desaru, Malaysia as of tomorrow morning. so pls DO NOT MSG OR CALL thanks. My phone will be off and i will not be bringing it with me. ok thanks. I be there for a School Orchestra Camp hahah.... we are like surppose to bond or some kind of crap lah hee hee. anyway i do hope i will not get bored cause you see i get bored easily. especially with the wrong ppl around me. ahhaaaa. I be back on Sunday so till then Enjoy reading....do leave a tag if needed.
Here is another concert ad....This by school's wonderful Pianist namely Miss Vogue (my awsome accompanist), XIng yi (killer technique), and Laurence Yu (the HK actor/pianist/hum sup loh) hahahhahaaa. They will be putting up a recital ALL ON THEIR OWN. hee hee cool a concert you must go. 
Debussy images no 1 'Reflets dans l'eau'
no 6 'Poissons d'or',
L'isle Joyeuse
Chopin ballade no 2,
Liszt hungarian rhapsodie no.6
Rachmaninoff Moment Musical
Kabalevsky Piano Sonata No. 3 op 46
Dvorak Slavonic Dances op 46 no 1 - 4 (piano duets)
plus. exciting encore (:
Till my next entry....Take Care and God Bless all !!!!!!!1
CHOWS~
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It was like dying and then waking up again....
Yesterday was the 'The Philharmonic Orchestra' concert and boy was it good man. The concert opened with Mozart Symophony 36 in C major. It was really light and clean. although i felt the 1st violin was on the brighter side as compared to the whole orchetra. none the less it was wel;l played and sounded very professional.
The highlight of this concert Shostakovich Symphony no 7. it was a 1hr 15min work and it did not feel that long really. the orchestra was totally happeneing man. the irst mvt was giving goose-bumps all over man it was so full of energy and anger....was great. that was this moment where the orchestra was very loud and you would be thinking the orchestra could not get louder....but they did...very much louder....WOW!!!!!!! it was so exciting. the 2nd an 3rd mvt were well played too but a littel intonation and technical problem here and there.... but well covered up ahhahaa. the final mvt was like a victory march man., it was filled with relief yet tense and energtic.the last chord was the best part man... i remember when the piece had ended both Midd vogue and I breath a sigh of relief and went "wow!!!!" yes it was like dying and then being woken up again.....totally cool. only wished i was part of it man. sigh....but i'm glad atleast i was part of the rehersals ahhahaa.a.a/
i'm so looking forward to more TPO projects. ahahhahaaaa
CHOWS~
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Saturday, October 28, 2006
Bad Rehersal....sigh
well still can't play my instrument properly but i still went for SNYO rehersal just now. I must say that there are many talented playerd there but no room to shine properly. I was sitting one-seide observing the orchestra and noticed everyone playing...yes everyone but with no musical direction. well i guess it has sometimg to do with the one waving the stick infront. anyway i think the orchestra can only work well with everyone's help. what i mean is, freedom of opinions and ideas. not only from the on infront but from the members that make up The Orchestra.
What is a Concerto? A solo melodic line with accompaniment. maybe. in a concerto does the Soloist follow the conductor or the conductor follow the soloist? answer that yourself. Someone should show some respect to the history of the concerto and how it is to be rehersaed and performed. don't change history to suit yourself.
Musician or actor.....?
i think the latter
CHOWS~
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Thursday, October 26, 2006
Life is really only so short.....
The past few days made me realise how short life really is. Two days ago, my friends mother passed away. I can't imagine what life would be like without your mum. Someone so imoprtant to you so essential in ytour life. though we show a strong front, in our mother's arms we break into fragile gems. nothing is more important in this world then your mother and be sure to let her know that everyday. Cause truely speaking...you might never know when you might never get to say it.
on the same day the world lost a talented flute player. Danil was a superb flautist with a wonderul talent. he was young and bubbly. though i do not know him very well, we did talk here and there. I remember six years ago, we went for our first SNYO audition together. then he was about 10. he was quite most of the time, but very witty. then we all new him as "the little russian boy" his green eyes always captivated us and his playing was always sincere. it is really saddening that the orchestra will be without him and it would be hard to accept it. only time can heal all wounds but nothing can replace him. You will be greatly pissed by all. God Bless!
After these two events i know have a new look at life and to live it to the max. everyday should be to the fullest. Sometimes that is really hard to do. Hard to live a full day.
Take good care of yourselves everyone!!!!
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on a lighter note. Go watch 'The Prestige' its a great movie with an interesting stroy line. everything is not what it seems.
well got my exam results...ahhaa i'm actually happy with it but could have done better for my performance if it were'nt fro that memory slip....sigh. other then that it was good hahahhaa.
well thats all for now...
CHOWS~
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Tuesday, October 24, 2006
THis SUCK....AND you SUCK!!!!
well i'm in school now and doing nothing... not that i can practice or anything. sigh. i have not touched my horn for days man... this is by far the longest i have been apart from my instrument. feels weird. anyway I'll be going for TPO reherasal tonoight to see if i can atleast play something...probably i'll get to take part in the concert. well my face is feeling better but not strong enough. atleast there is an inprovement. It helped alot going out with my friends these few days. felt good getting out of the house. thanks to everyone fro making me feel better, be it irritating me by imitating me...(Pignix and jerry) or well wishes. apprciate it. a BIG THANKS AND HUG!!!!!
Anyway recently been having weird dreams of a friend. well not a close one but a normal friend. the thing is this the frist time i had a dream of this friend man. weird. well i won't go into detail cause some of it is a bit X-rated hahahaa.....go imagine it ppl. ahhahaaa
Have you ever been in the situation where you are there just trying to please this one person and being everything you can but this person just does not seem to get it. you try so hard to be there and anjoy this freinds company but this friend does not seem to notice or even bother. sigh. this is so not me...i should get out of it before it becomes something i cannot control.
well while in bed these few days just resting and lazing around, i have been thinking alot of H and the piece i wrote... i was more inspired to write further and expand the meaning within. i was looking at it this morning and realsie what Dr. Goh meant by "don't compose too fast..." i noticed that the idea does not link in a way and does not flow properly. well i'm looking into it now and hopefully it would be better. today i finally got the motif for the thrid movemnet..ahaha so happy. hee hee
well that all fro now ppl...
CHOWS~
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Sunday, October 22, 2006
SuckS!!!!
Well have not been well lately. Got this Virul infection on my face and what it does is it weakens the facial muscles and the nerves go dead. I have no control over the facial expressions on the left side of my face. sigh. especially for a person like me who likes to smile and laugh alot,...it becomes like a 100 times more difficult and painful. sigh. worst thing is i can't play my horn...as in totally not a single note...i sound worst then my students man.
sigh this sucks!!!!!!!!!
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Tuesday, October 17, 2006
PCO now TPO-L2L concert
L 2 L
The Philharmonic Chamber Orchestra is now known as The Philharmonic Orchestra. here is the ad for our next concert this month. titled
"Linz to Leningrad" .The higlight of the evening will be Mozart's Symphony no. 36 and Shostakovich's Symphony no. 7. In case for those who are wondering.... FYI this year marks the 250th Birth Anniversary of Mozart and 100th Birth anniversary of Shostakovich. I asure you this is a concert not to be miss and its a must go. these are two landmarks composition of the classical and 20th century era.
Details are on the flyers.
Do attend.
WARNING!!!!!!!!: Symphony no.7 is 1hr and 15min... yes its a test of your stamina.
AND PLS DON't CLAP in between MOVEMENTS!!!!!!!!!!
See you!!!!!
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Monday, October 16, 2006
relaxing weekend....
went to a friends house for the night on saturday. It was fun and really felt good to be just sitting around eating fabulous Chicken stew and bread and catching up. I liked the feeling. then we watched a movie and ate mooncake...like how heavenly man ahhahaa.
anyway then on sunday went to Dr. Mannhart's house hee hee. was fun really. some of Au-re's vocal students put up short performances. and later we ate pizza and cookies too ahaha. then we just sit around and mingle and chatted. both jerry and I were trying to sell out ensemble to this women who works as a arts promoter or something like that ahaha. then Jerry took out his weapon of mass distruction....THE RECORDER!!!!!! Arghhhhhh!!!!!!!! hhahaha well he took it out and started jamming to whatelse..... BACH!!!! ahahhaa then Edric sadi something about the Recorder that got jerry agitated...then Jerry started his "World Recorder Awarness Campagin" and started to play Christmas music......'''-_- hahaa but was too.. then Peh wen, Edric and I started carolling...i know its a bit early...well very early actually... but it was fun...then later into the night Mus took out the book of broadway musicals and then we all sang to some of them...ahhaha athanks Ming wei for being the poor pianist to hear all our crap ahhahahahaa.... after that Ming wei hgad to leave.... OH NO!!!!!! no pianist how!?!?!?!?!?!! ahahhaa no fear....Jerry to the rescue.....ahhahahaaArghhh....!!!!!!!! haahahaa well he was not that bad....we sang all the song s from the Phantom of the Opera...was really fun and enjoyable...never had so much fun singing hahaha.....and yes i never seen jerry so frantic while playing the piano ahaha. you guys shoudl see him move man.....Sorry jerry!!!! ahahahhahahha
to conclude: i had fun last night and only hope there would be more of these "brain-less" gatherings where we do things that just come to mind and no need to plan for it... It works better. hahahahaa to Dr. Mannhart (if you are reading), had fun at your place...you should have more of this... ahhahaa I LOVE YOUR VOICE!!!!!!
yup that was all for my 'Brain-less" weekend...felt good not using your brains he ehee
CHOWS~
PS cheers to a brain-less weekend.....ahhahaaa Can't wait for Christmas!!!!!!!!
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Saturday, October 14, 2006
Cecilia Bartoli
Was on Youtube a couple of days back and found these two amazing videos. they are of Cecilia Bartoli, world reknowned Mezzo-soprano. SHE's just AMAZING!!!!! no words can describe her. I love these two videos and they have inspired me alot. the first is Armatae face et anguibus and the 2nd Agitata da due venti both by Vivaldi. Pay particular attention to her stage presence....its scary...but good. Its the kind of stage presence we as musicans only dream of having. the confidence she has is just.........no words to describe. I especially love her phrasing and expressions... every note she sings is alive full of energy and purpose. I need to archieve this....difficult yes....sigh. none the less i feel much more inspired everytime i watch these videos...or any video of her.
I hope you guys enjoy these videos as much as i did and hope it evokes your mind as it did to mine.
Enjoy the music you create
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Thursday, October 12, 2006
Don't feel like doing anything....
STOP READING HERE IF YOU ARE NOT INTERESTED.......THANKS FOR VISITING!!!!!
oh no I'm going into the mood of not doing anything. I don't feel like going out. I don't feel like doing the arrangment. I don't feel like going to the dinner on monday. Just want to be alone. I need to find myself again. Find myself amongst the confusion in my mind. i feel like giving up whatever i'm doing.
I need a break....A break from everyone. Is that possible...not sure.
Miss the days where things were normal. the days where everything and anyhting goes. now it is barriered by the thoughts of ppl. everything becomes a restriction. everything needs to be organised and planned to sligtest detail. Why? where is fun? the funWAS in the fact where we just be ourselves and let our hair down. there was a time where we could (like a friend of mine said) stop and smell the roses. now everything is moving so fast. too fast. i can't catch my breath. Slower pls...slower. "No....you keep up or we'er leaving you behind" this is as fast as i can go... any faster and i'll fall.
There was a time where you did not think too much...a time where you went with the flow of day to day life. to lived your life according to the day and not by planning it. nowadays you are like a walking organiser..planning your every move. I can't keep up with that. you tied up your hair and and tied my down. let your hair down and free me. I need to know you again, the old one. the one i liked to be with. now I force a smile on my face so as to please you. up till now you have no clue. when will this acting end. I tried to fit myself into your "new" exterior. i tried. i really did. but i am weaken by every new "trick" you pull. this is as far as i can pull myself to. I can't keep up with you.
I miss the times where we would just sit down and have a care-free chat. so strings attached, no deadlines, no time limit...just pure endless enjoyement of the company you gave me. you'er a complex person...and i have no problems with that....you are you and I can't meet with your "expectations".
Sorry for all the problems i caused you
Sorry for the times you had to deal with my temper.
Thanks for that listening ear
Thanks for that one Amazing converstation we had
Thanks fro being a friend.
Sorry i can't
I have given up....and i have to pick myself up. no is there to help me....no one can that is.
CHOWS~
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Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Vogue Outing....(incomplete)
VoGue Outing.....
ok this is at the begining of out Lunch at Indulgz Bistro...hee hee..... there was only 7 of us...(jeremy behind the camera)
this is when things started getting high...aahhahahaa oh and this is when Wei Ping (PAP) arrived too. hee hee pay particular attention to those in Black and compare with with rest of the "normal" ppl. ahhahaa amazing.....and we'er all in the same class.
One of Miss VoGue's more VoGue and "Perfect" moments..... pay particular attention to the propotionate nose holes hahahahahhahaa
THis is when we were more or less lost it....hahahhahaa with Pignix and his weird emotional out burst and Jerry trying to be glam and with kevin acting cool...hmmm i wonder why?
My my....A picture of perfection...such pois, such elegance....
YUP those were the few pics we took on our VoGue Lunch....too bad Royce Ali and Clare missed it.
well we'll be having another gathering next week... hahaa not sure if i'm going actually ahahhaa.... yup.
CHOWS~
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Tuesday, October 10, 2006
for a moment like this some ppl wait a lifetime....
yesterday was my medical check up at CMPB. hahahaa it was a weird day i would say. met Mi-mi at 715 am at Tiong Bahru then headed of to CMPB for our medical check up. I was feeling nervous mainly because I HATE going to the doctors. anyway so i went. there was like a few ppl and so we tought we could finsh early and go home. but we online started the real check up after all the paper work and me having to shave there. hahahaa all the medics there were like dame eewww lah... the first one....
Medic one: (at the urine and blood test station)- after calling all the names in a very irritating voice..(like jolly pong) "ok all of you take the stick (the color stick to determine your urine contents.) and go shi-shi on it ok..." ahahhahaa shi-shi?!?!?!?!?!1 GROW UP MAN!!!! ahahahaaa then later on an idiot cam along....
idiot: (same station)- "a.... i pee where ah??? on the color part or the white part....??" WTH!!!!!!!! OMG are ppl that dump...ahahghaaa Mimi and I concluded that he was a true Dump Blonde ahahhaaa
after that station....i we went for the X-ray. there the medic took our files and then kept it there while chatting on the phone...we waited for long and concluded that he was talking to HIS boyfriend and talking about all the "Hunks" he saw that day ahahahahahahaaa BITCH!!!!! then finally we got to go in for our X-ray.
Medic two: "ok guys take off your shirts out there and wait one by one to go in...." after waiting it was my turn..... when i went in... " ok please stand here.....ok lean on the screen pls....ok now look at me and do what i do...ok good....now look in front and breath deeply....ok not enough hor....prease breath more....ok good but not enough breath again.. ok good. ok that was practice ok now the real one.... ok breath now......ok good but pls lean on the screen...." (i was thinking....does he not realise that my TUMMY is so big and if i breath deeper it expands...and i am pushed backward.....Arghh......) BITCH!!!!
then we proceeded to the sound test and then on to the medical cheak up. well nothing much happened after that. all went smoothly and we ended at 1115am. cool then we headed for lunch.
well thats done...i feel better... ahhaa nothing serious.
ok today went cycling with Mimi at ECP. not bad was fun and tiring he ehee. i left my house at 9am and cycled around tampines before going on to ECP. there i met Mimi and then we cycled for like another two hours. hahaa was fun and relaxing. we chatted and gossiped and laugfhed. we went to the bedok jetty to slack and rest then it was on to the end of ECP whcich was like 2Km away. well we did it. ahahaa I was dame tired but was fun cycling. then we went for lunch and had Fish bee Hoon...YUM YUJM!!!!!! after that i cycled back home.. was dame weak at that point so i took regular rests along the way...hahaha was good exercise... I DID 4 HOURS OF CYCLING!!!!! yeah....looking forward to more. ahhaa
ok nothing much is happening these few days. hahaa just rehersals etc. yup. Yeah finally going IKEA shopping next week ahhahaa can't wait man....buy useless stuff again ahahhaa. can't wait.
well holidays are going well so far...can't wait for movie marathone this saturday night man... ahahhahaa
ok thats all for now....CHOWS~
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Sunday, October 08, 2006
you have things to settle with yourself.....DO IT!!!!
ok now i am like completely free man. I feel so high and full of life. on friday i went to Dr. Mannhart's concert with the Amadeus choral society. they were good and i liked the sound man. Dr. Mannharts sings like an angel man, i love his voice. COOL!!!!! while listening to them i was trying my best to hear all the four voice moving at the same time but i can't. i have to say i felt upset that i can't hear things others can hear. they won't know how i feel cause they can hear stuff. I have problems gearing inner lines and bass progressions. oh well. thats music fro you.
yesterday i went for the YST openhouse. well i went alone because certain ppl have a problem with punctuality that they need to settle with themselves. anyway that aside. the new building was nice. it was cool and mordern but abit cold in feeling. it felt like a hospital rather then a music consevatory. sad. In comparison to my school, even our walls speak with life and music. each corridor is fulll of life and sound. each studio is personalised making it feel like home. I'd settle for NAFA anytime man. Cold walls or singing walls? Singing walls obviouisly.
anyway after that went dinner with jerry pignix and piggy. was ok. nothing interesting. then went to esplanade library to find Christmas carols for our Christmas gig. saw kitty and the MPYC ppl. they were practicing for a wedding gig today.
anyway tonight i'm going for the Vienna Boys' Choir. YEAH!!!!!!!! can't wait. well a few ppl say they are not good and all. well i'll just go anyway cause i have not heard them live.
well holidays are going well so far. hmmm. when school satrt again its gonna be a mad rush of essays, portfolios, presentations, recitals, etc. Am I ready for that? not sure actually. Can I do it for this one last time? haveing doubts on that.
feel like running away from everyone. feel like hiding from ppl. I don't feel comfortable anymore. i feel insecure most of the days. i feel like shutting my eyes and never opening it again. I feel like being deaf so i don't need to hear ppl's criticism. I feel like being blind so that i don't see the double headed stuff they do. I feel like not having a 'heart' so i won't feel pity and compasion. feel like drowning myself in music. just listen and listen none stop.
some ppl i know like to creat their own fantasy world. a world that they are god. a world where they are perfect and others are not. funny that there are ppl like that. I know two in particular. the first 'blue'. blue likes to "pretend" to know alot. always trying to be learned and trying its very best to out shine others. well...thats just ego i feel. blue also is a pathalogical liar. telling false tales to impress and also to creat a sence of self pity. how sad is that man. hahahaha VERY SAD!!!!!! anyway blue never has a set group of friends and is always chnaging....then i ask. Who are your REAL friends? blue has some issuse that IT needs to settle before blue kills itself with its own lies. the second person is a know it all 'orange' well orange is not like blue but orange has this problem of THINKING that it is always right so much so that it becomes also an ego problem. whenever there is a mistake during a particular 'ensemble' practice and somthing sounds weird orange would always be ready to point fingers. easy to point yes but you must be ready to get the same treatment from others. orange thinks that it knows everything....this is a case of The bark is louder then its bite. SAD!!!!! well i'm not saying i'm too perfect and all i too have problems with myself and i do look to it. the thing with These two CLOWNS is that no one dares to tell them in the face. wHy? i'm not sure.
CHOWS~
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Monday, October 02, 2006
Is everything done??
well just finished my history and concert attendance portfolio too. I feel so much lighter and I feel more alive. I really enjoyed our study session on Counterpoint. hee heee yum POTATOS!!!!!!! hahahahaa THnaks to piggy's mum (Mrs.Wong) for the wonderful dinner and thanks Jerry for tolerating our crappy question while you do your history hee hee. It was nice to study like this hahahaa. looking forward to doin it again next year (Jerry: OH NO!!!!!!) hahahahahaa.
Yesterday I was in school doing my portfolio and decided to take a break. As i walked out of the Computer lab I heard a familiar tune. A tune that attrated me to it. well it was not only the melody that attrated me but the way this person was playing it, It was how H would have played it. and suddenly memories flooded my mind with all the times i speant with H and the time she played this Violin concerto for me to hear. I walked towards the studio where the person was playing and i looked it. It was a little boy, but at the moment i looked in i tot i saw H but i soon realised it was a little boy. Strangely the sound coming out from that violin was so rich and almost suductive. I miss H alot...too much actually. *Wishing you were somehow here again.* SOmething so powerful as this, metled my heart and weakened my soul. After hearing this i also remembered that, 'Ezablle' has not been looked at or edited since the last it was played and trhe 2nd mvt and 3rd mvt are all stangnet. Have i forgotten my love in all this work at school. I have forgotten to carry on my dream. I still want to complete this work, maybe then will i find peace with myself.
Funny how music can affect ppl so much in more ways then one. Well that is magic that we are all out to discover.
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Samsung irritates me more and more nowadays and I fell dame vexed when ever i see 'its' face.
Ok tomorrow is Counterpoint Exam and portfolio submission and on thursday is Orchestration assignment submission YEAH THEN I'M DONE!!!!!!
What i'd like to do during the holidays:
- Have a Masquerade lunch or dinner with my dear Trio!!!!
- "hopefully" have a Vogue outing (hahahahaa yah rite)
- GO Ikea shopping
- go for concerts
- Practice Practice Practice
- hopefully can play with acompaniment...(Hint HInt)
- Jogging perhaps hahahaaa
- Al Madil outing
- Movies Galore
- Lunch at Indulgz
- have hot date with Pink girl @ starbucks hahahaa
- Slap 'Samsung' maybe
- write a letter to H
- Practice Practice and yes more Practice....
Hmm seem like a slot of work this month.... may not have enough time hee hee..... OH YAH..... i want to go for PICNIC hee hee
I miss my "Big Sister" *weep*
This is Neh-Neh hahaha my senior from NAFA. Thanks for all your help and advice. Thanks for the times we argued and made no sence. I'll miss the times we would go to Coffee bean and ppl watch. I will miss having band reherasals with you hee hee and talking about you know who ahahhahahahahaaa. Thanks for being a Sister i never had. MISS YOU LOTS!!!!!!!
Ok thnaks all for now. hope i'll blog soon....YEAH can't wait for Amadeus conert and Vienna Boys hee hee
CHOWS~
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Open Season!!!! must watch
One of Miss VoGue's more VoGue and "Perfect" moments..... pay particular attention to the propotionate nose holes hahahahahhahaa
THis is when we were more or less lost it....hahahhahaa with Pignix and his weird emotional out burst and Jerry trying to be glam and with kevin acting cool...hmmm i wonder why?
My my....A picture of perfection...such pois, such elegance....
