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Thursday, November 29, 2007 Christmas is just around the corner...

Christmas is just around the corner and i am feeling the Christmas cheer in me alot. Love Christmas alot although i don't enjoy it every year. Not sure why really. Came home yesterday for my 1/2/day off. I took a cab from the ferry terminal and during the cab ride on the radio they were playing "Have yourself a Merry little Christmas". The version they played was very beautiful and made me feel like it was Christmas eve already. Amazing how some voices can really make you dream endlessly.

Anyway I had the choice to take my Day-off or not. So i did cause i needed to get out of PARADISE. Get away from ppl whom i thought were friends. 5+ months of sleeping, bathing, eating, chatting, struggling together was all a waste og time. Before I went into PARADISE, ppl told me, "You will make your best friends during this part of PARADISE" I tried to believe but at the back of my head, i was saying NO. True enough, my so called "Friends" true out to be just ppl who just talk and sit with you only when they need you. Upset? Yes i am. for those who know me well, i take friendship seriously. in PARADISE i only have 7 really close friends now i only have 4. I want to get out of PARADISE now cause day in day out i am sad. i used to be happy and cheery, now i feel very upset at times and have to hide it. cause ppl will; say why so emo so cici and all. I miss my other friends alot.

God help me in Times of Despair
God help me when i am blind
God help me My heart is aching

Please grant me peace

13days to go!!

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Sunday, November 25, 2007 Choices

It is nearing the end and i am very happy. Happy with all that i have gone through and will go through. What will the next phase hold for me? i'm excited to find out.

Do not ask me why i make certain choices. I'm sacrificing my dream so that others may have a chance to dream. I'm facing reality. Will update more on this in the days to come. maybe weeks maybe years.

Not in the mood to blog now. lots of things in my head too little time to write about.

17 days to go. Hang in there!!!!

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Sunday, November 18, 2007 3weeks to go

It has been about a month since i last updated. reason being that i had my Picnic a PARADISE and also another similar picnic but i would call it Mission (im)Possible Picnic. ask me and i'll explain. hint, Situational picnic la hahhaa.

hoping to get to band. feeling afraid that that might not be possible. Getting an audition is tough enough let alone getting in. Hoping for the best.

Can't wait for this PARADISE to be over. sometimes i look out from my room and tell myself, " I can't believe i have completed so many weeks" telling myself this i can't help but say that those many weeks went by very fast. Can't believe i have completed most of the major activities and come out of it well and safe.

Will i miss PARADISE???... i need to be out of it before i can answer that question.

Christmas is around the corner but sadly like every other year i dream of a beautiful Christmas but never get one. If there is one thing i want, it would be a beautiful Christmas. hope to go out for gatherings with ppl i have not seen in months and for some, for the entire year. Miss the Voggies and Al'Madil.

This pic is of me and dil and mad during the Hari Raya outing hee hee...

Got this pic from Amy. reminded me of my days in Academy especially when it rains and everyone is late for 9am class and then the whole main corridor would look like a sea of umbrellas. cool right hee hee miss my days at the Academy. Take a look at the white board.... it is usually filled with notices of lost items, crapping comments, ads of concerts, notice from the head of our department and lots of rubbish drawings hahaha. you can call it a vandalising wall hahhaaa