Vivald|sSiMo

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Sometimes, i guess want to just shout out all that is on my mind. It would make me feel better but others upset. I suprise myself when i see how much of angst and feelings i keep inside of me. I must be one huge bottle. I want to let it all out. I want to shout out from the centre of the earth.

If I could shout that out, i would say these few things:

How much I miss you each day
How much your presence makes me feel alive
How much I hate some people
How much I wish you study
How much i long for my other half
How much i Love myself
How much i Love God

All these things i would say. But fear is always there to stop me. My heart is always there to warn me about what others might feel.

It is easy to feel things but incredibly difficult to express it especially if you already know what reaction you might get. I can perform a solo for anyone or a thousand people but shy away at the very idea of telling you how i truly feel.

It has been too many years and i seriously need to move on with my life. I have atleast 80% of it thrown away, i am still struggling with the remainder.

If only it could be easier.

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Wednesday, November 12, 2008 I Miss doing silly stuff together...

People who have known me for long know that i like to do silly stuff. of course not alone. But with friends around to join in and have a good time. I miss those days of silliness. Just walking from school to Bugis just to get a cup of Ice is so wonderful. Stupid and pointless to some. But in that few minutes we chat about everything and anything, without a single care in the world. even if we are gonna be late for class, we just stroll and enjoy the moment. I miss Mei Ling. i miss those 'Cup of Ice' walks we used to take.

Having a unplanned day can always turn out to be the most enjoyable ones. Having nothing to do and finding ourselves in Vivocity with little to spend and do. We went to Cold Storage bought a tub of Ice-Cream, a French loaf and two spoons. went to the deck outside and ate there. messy but really fun and nostalgic. I liked the randomness and the life stories we talked about and shared our dreams and goals. miss those times Dil...

Having no com at home last time, i had to work in school everynight. thanks to jerry and nix for always keeping me company till late and going home together. there may be no reason to stay back so late but i liked the company you guys gave. Thanks alot, You pulled me through my Academy days. the most eventful night would have to be, when we were chasing our bus and i fell and rolled on the slope. instead of helping me up nix asked "Are we still gonna run for the bus..???!?!" at that moment i thought, "Ok run!!!!" ahahhaa it was a funny night and i remember the endless laughs we had on the bus back home. missing it.

One of the nicest and most unexpected things was when i asked you guys to join me for 'Pirates of the Caribbean" Marathon which was late and lasted till the next morning. and you guys said YES!!! i was so happy. It was a fun night out. Espensive but the enjoyment was pricless. i remember the supper we had, the haunted places we visited and the 6am playground madness we had hahahha unforgetable.

been really missing all this kinds of activities lately and it is at these moments that i truly miss your company. Our lives have all taken different paths and time is not our best companion anymore.

I express my well wishes to Jerry and Piggy. Hope you guys are good and doing fine overseas. Miss your crappiness, laughter, randomness, smiles, company, silliness etc. Looking forward to the day we all can do it once more.

Jerry and I doing what we do best, eat...yumyum

Her usual activity...practicing on me of course.

Movie marathon...

Posing at some supper place..

random

Mr and Miss Vogue

6am Playground mandess

Posing randomly...idea was to be glam...failed i think...hee hee

All but Memories now

CHOW

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Sunday, November 09, 2008 Getting sucky....

Every weekend has been pretty sucky lately. It is so boring and i feel really irritated each weekend. Sometimes I don like the weekend to ever come, yet i want it. Miss the days where people were more free to go out for movies, shopping, or just chill out and people watch. Miss those catching up sessions and all those concert going days. Now it is just like get home on Friday sleep Sat. practice go sleep occasional movie maybe, sunday church, come home to pack and back to camp. it has become so routine and i don like it at all.

Catching up has become so difficult to plan these days. I do understand that everyone has their own schedule and plans and all. Just sometimes i feel like we are getting further apart.

nothing much to say now..i will update a proper entry soon..

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