Monday, September 25, 2006
Thanks for being a friend...
Went out last night to meet an old friend. Well I realy needed that man. I was so glad to meet Dil after so long. I talked about the problems i'm having with some ppl in school. I felt so much better and i finally felt i could breath. I also talked about my issuse with 'Samsung' and i felt so much better...it was in me for so long ans i was about to burst. Dil you'er a life saver man.
today was my recital. I guess it did not go too well. I know that i cando much better. sigh. I'm prepared for bad results. sigh sigh sigh. now i have to work for the Final recital man. i must do well for that. Well the rest of my classmates all did well and were all dazzling in their way.
I HATE SAMSUNG!!!!!!!!
now i have to do my portfolios and also study counterpoint....then i'm done. yeah!!!!!!!!
Last night before going to bed I was running my recital and all of a sudden H popped into my head. I was like shock and also curious how come all of a sudden. ... I started thinking of the times i spent with H chatting and crapping, eating and arguing about food and everything under the sun. I remmebered this one time we played this silly game and H was like a sore loser and kept playing until she on me. sigh i iss those times.
I can't get over it man.....
The moment short lifed but a life time of memories...sigh. Is at times when i feel upset or pissed that i wish i have H to talk to. sigh. If only...
CHOWS~
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Sunday, September 24, 2006
What's happening
Well it has been awhile since i updated my blog. anyway exams are here and everyone is as usual getting tense, frustrated, stress, agitated etc... well I have to say 3rd year is not that bad as compared to the 1st and 2nd years. they are like rushing for dendlines and mugging and practicing. hmmm pity them atr times but then again, i went through it and i guess they have to do it too. All the best to all the 1st and 2nd years, don't give up and keep going, it will all end very fast and you'll miss it. enjoy these foundation years cause in 3rd year, you will hardly see most of your classmates and do stuff together.
My recital is tomorrow at 1030 at te LFT. I do hope i do well and get a good grade for my recital atleast. then it is time to rush portfolios and also study counterpoint an d do orchestration assignment. Arghhhhhh!!!!!
Can't wait to perform for the SLO concert....it'll be fun. i love to accompany singers,...it is always more interesting. then is the PCO concert . hmmmm looks like i'm pretty busy this october.
went for the SSO Firebird concert lat night. not bad....i liked it and tot it was pretty good. oh well.
anyway thats is like all for now
CHOWS~
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Wednesday, September 20, 2006
International Peace Day 2006
TOmorrow will be International Peace Day. One day of peace in the world I hope.
Just...
one day of silence
one day of love
one day of smiles
one day of hope
one day of love
one day of peace
just one day to make the world a better place.
free of hatered
free of violence
free of rasictism
free of bombs
free of killers
just one day to make the world a better place.
Peace and love to all!!!!!!!!!!
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Monday, September 18, 2006
pa‧tience
–noun
1.
the quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like.
2.
an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay: to have patience with a slow learner.
3.
quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence: to work with patience.
4.
Cards (chiefly British) solitaire (def. 1).
5.
Also called patience dock. a European dock, Rumex patientia, of the buckwheat family, whose leaves are often used as a vegetable.
6.
Obsolete. leave; permission; sufference.
Something i have in abundance but for some reason...i'm losing it. don't push me to the edge. cause YOU will be the one i push off the cliff.
nothing much to update about. nothing interesting. well thats life recently.
have you ever gotten the feeling where ppl just treat you differntly just because there'er your friends. they taking things lightly, thinkiong it will not bother you. well it does. I don't know why and how i put up with you, favours are granted when you ask, a listening ear for you in times of need, a joke or too for thise gloomy day... all for nothing....why do i evern bother...in the end all i get back is your crap. well, thats what friends are for i guess....
a very good friend likes to say this... "I'm like a box of really good Chocolate Ice-cream, once you'er done with it you throw it away..." well somthing like that. i feel this is so true...i guess in life you are only entitled to a few friends.
Was feeling stressed and troubled recently, i needed a break, i needed to get out of the school enviroment. thankfully i met up with my Old friends who were always there you boost my spirit. always greetd with a huge smile, a ready listening ear, endless amounts of jokes and laughter, a compasionate heart and a hearty meal that is worth every mouthful. i miss going out with them and all the crap we do and above all the freedom to be yourself and not have to wear a mask over yourself. Its different in NAFA and else where. I miss the birthday bashes we throw, the late night supperes we go to, the sleep overs that always end up being so fun and exciting, the aimless outings, movies and just sitting at the Kopitiam and drinking a good cup of Teh-tarik and chatting about life, futre and others. hmmm....the momets i live for.
well thats all...
CHOWS~
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Friday, September 15, 2006
Been a long time....
Hello dear readers...
well it has been a long time since i updated my blog. hahaha. anyway exam are around the corner and feeling stressed about it. Well basically feeling stressed about the recital actually. I don't feel at all prepared for it. Had a few rehersals with miss vogue. still don't feel secure with the piano. don't feel as comfortable as before. not sure why. I think i am just thinking too much.
well portfolios due soon, concerts coming up etc. stress...feeling like giving up at times.
I Hate 'Samsung'...... 'Samsung' is dumb...Childish ass
yeah going to watch Vienna Boys Choir hee hee my first time... hope it will be good....and WORTH MY MONEY ahaha
ok thats all for now hahha...
CHOWS~
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Monday, September 11, 2006
Words with no meaning....
Said at that moment to please...
Words at that moment....
Seem so meaningful...
Don't do this to me....I don't deserve it.
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Thursday, September 07, 2006
Don't know what is happeneing to me...
Sigh lots of work to do in school. well not really just that i have no mood to start on it. I have been trying but always can't finish. I have Composition to finish, History articles, Composer Resume, History presentation, Instrumental and vocal portfolio, concert attendance portfolio, etc....I have my recital coming up and i am nowhere near ready. Phil winds perfromance, PCO concert and rehearsal, SNYO rehersal on top of this i have much other things to think about. I may look free but i am always thiking of doing my work but never finish it. sigh sigh. feels like year 1 once again.
it was must easier when the previous batch was here. atleast can do work then chit-chat then go teh-tarik then come and do work. sigh, i miss them all. nowadays school is somwhat not interesting to me. trying my best not to fall apart in school, trying best to hold my tongue, trying my best to be patient, trying my best to be a friend. Trying and trying but always failing.
as the days past its getting tougher and tougher...
how long can i go on...go on being sane...
not sure how the others do it man but i feel dame backward in my work. die i have yet to study counterpoint.
I was reading the messgaes this friend "Samsung" sent me. Samsung sends me messages that are very nice, nice to read and full of meaning. but for some reason, that meaning is fading with each passing day. I kept certain msg because it was nice and sincere and above all true to evey word...or so i tot. nowadays Samsung is no longer the samsung i use to know. either me or Samsung is or has changed. yeaterday i had a reality cheak with myself, the messages Samsung sent were what Smasung felt at that moment but not necessary all the time. Sigh. Words which i looked at eveyday turn into worthless dust. The words have no meaning, no substance, no truth just plain words, plain old SMS. nothing much and yet i was blinded my it. well I have deleted these 'Words' i feel terrible now feel like a fool. I miss Samsung...the Old Samsung not the now Self centred Samsung, the silent Samsung, the cold Samsung.
I wonder how H is doing overseas...must be having fun...
anyway i gtg "try" to do work...
CHOWS~
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Sunday, September 03, 2006
Its been long....
Hello,
well it has been a long time since i updated. nothing much happened i would say, NAFA Chmaber choir concert was ok other then one person...AGAIN!!!!
anyway school has been ok i think. trying to avoid human contact and basically want to be alone. i guess this is the exam period and i sort of feeling the pressure. I plan to finish my work way ahead man. I'm planning to go to KAP mac to stay over and do my history portfolio hee hee thinking about it but not sure i can do hee hee ....well we'll see.
yesterday was SNYO, was like ok only lor. so boring. had exchange with MYO. hmmm what can i say...They need a Tuning Mastercalss man. sorry but that is the truth. well then had tea buffet hahaha with Joy, Hannah, HuiQi and Andrea. ahhahaa i was like knocking into things and falling and tripping hahaha fisrt time in my life man.
stayed and chit chat with Joy while waiting for her dad. we were like gossiping and all lah ahahhaa about all the couples in YO, the funny ppl and ppl that are weird hee hee. Had fun.
Well had a probelem with a friend recently, name 'Shal'. well not goign to go into detail but i guess it was good we talked about it. i was feeling really really uncomfortable about the whole thing. Well i am glad i have a "Shallow" friend like you....keeps my brain working ahahhahaa.
anyway thats all for now i guess...
CHOWS~
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