Friday, April 28, 2006
To my NAFA Seniors....
I just returned from an SSO concert in my school. anyway half way into the concert, Lim Yau turned back and said "You know, you the audience ashould more relax then the musicians on stage...." hmm i felt that was so true but then again its singapore.
i have come back to think of the same topic, What am i doing in the Music world? i really don't know. anyway i felt that music is something i used to portray whats inside of me. but till now no one, after hearing, my composition, has found out my message. thats good actually. i don't want ppl to find out.
anyway the year threes are leaving soon and i am goin to miss my darling friends. Firstly its Renee my horn-bitching-senior-attitude-best-friend hee hee, Lau Li( hahaa still have not played our duet finish together. then theres Angel, Nat, Ernie, Dottie my fav pppl to disturb ahhahahahaa... not to forget, Darius, for his crap and PCK and also all the piano stuff i learnt form watching him play, desmond, never forget the discopline he has for practicing and perfecting, something that i have learnt the value of from just watching and hearing. hmm whoelse...oh yes....MY SCHOOL-LOVER!!!!!!1 RYAN hahahahhaa don't get it the wrong way, we are school-lovers meaning we always go to school early in the morning and its liike only two of us on sundays doing work..... sigh now i willl not have anyone on sundays hee hee and yes there are other but won't name them all out.....I WILL MISS YOU ALLL!!!!!!!!!! sigh. must visit ah hee hee
yup thats all for now. there have been many bads time and more good times. we may not like the things others do but at the end of the day i still love you guys and my NAFA life would not have been thid fun and tolerable if not for your company. take care guys and GOD BLESS the path you choose after NAFA. *MUACK*
ahhahahaa
CHOWS~
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Rainbows....
Helllllo....
well today I have officially ended all of my exams. hee hee. I would like to share an experince with everyone in this entry. I was feeling down the past few days thinking of all sort of stuff. I was stressed with my exams. worried i would not be able to get through. then on my way to school yesterday, i was tired and uninterested in studying. i was really upset with everything, but i did not show. anyway i remember of a story an aunt of mine (who past a way years back) told me, when the world is full of trouble, full of hate and full of misery, you pray to god. you always think god does not care and does not answer your prayer. he does answer your prayer in his own ways and time. god will send a rainbow, telling you everything will be alright and do not fear. leave it in his hands and all will be done. when i saw that rainbow yesterday i was touched and remembered this stroy my aunt told be just days before she passed away. I still deeply believe in this story and it made me feel better and i think my exams willl be fine and my recital... but i have to do my part and practice of course hee hee.
CHOWS~
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Rainbows....
Helllllo....
well today I have officially ended all of my exams. hee hee. I would like to share an experince with everyone in this entry. I was feeling down the past few days thinking of all sort of stuff. I was stressed with my exams. worried i would not be able to get through. then on my way to school yesterday, i was tired and uninterested in studying. i was really upset with everything, but i did not show. anyway i remember of a story an aunt of mine (who past a way years back) told me, when the world is full of trouble, full of hate and full of misery, you pray to god. you always think god does not care and does not answer your prayer. he does answer your prayer in his own ways and time. god will send a rainbow, telling you everything will be alright and do not fear. leave it in his hands and all will be done. when i saw that rainbow yesterday i was touched and remembered this stroy my aunt told be just days before she passed away. I still deeply believe in this story and it made me feel better and i think my exams willl be fine and my recital... but i have to do my part and practice of course hee hee.
CHOWS~
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Thursday, April 27, 2006
EXAMS almost over
hello ppl,
well today i finshed my most dreaded paper...HARMONY!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!! i was like waiting for it to end man. the paper was really difficult man. I mean alot of my classmates found it tough and confusing. well atleast its over. i am placing my fate on my schoolwork, which are far better. hee hee. anyway after that we had MOA presentation which was not well done but i guess we did our best for the given time we put our effort in.
anywya H keeps coming back into my mind. i think its because i have less things to think about. I have been seeing and speaking to H alot recently and H reminds me alot of L. (if you ppl actually rememeber you will understand) and yes i am still falling for H alot. H is just so sweet and lind and loving alll over hahha. i am crazy man. H is my source of inspiration man. i was motivated by h to keep going for all my exams and studying too he ehee.
anyway thats all for now hee hee
CHOWS~
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
COnfused
trying hard to please the world but i am failing. had PS today which lasted like 30 minutes. i felt that i am so not prepared for my exams. My teacher says i should get at least an A-. but i doubt it. firstly my strauss sucks like big time. and Dukas is still unknown. how am i goin to carry on. I have handed in all my work by why does it seem that i have a ton of other billion stuff to do. sigh. when will it end.....will it? that too i am not sure. well Orchestration exams tomorrow and i feel so tired and not interested in studying. this is my forte subject and i so need to score. i know my other subjects will not be as good. sigh.
well my SNYO composition competition piece is taking shape soon. I got an idea for it and i am sort getting into character. this piece will be my favourite one. i will be writing for Piano, Cello, and Violin. it will be in about 4 movements. looking forward to starting this, but can't find the time. oh GOD!!!!!!!! i feel so tired.
i still have clarence's concerto to do, HC string ensemble concert, other gigs, and many more sigh. what a life i have choosen.
as if all this is not enough, i am constantly thinking about H and its bothering me. i am losing my concentration.
i can't wait for the Chocolate Buffet outing man.... YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When you really love somebody, you would do anything....and that includes forgetting them cause deep down, you know you are just chasing the clouds... :)
CHOWS~
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Saturday, April 22, 2006
Its hard to keep it in
why is it so hard for us to get angry or agitated. have you ever wondered. you might be wondering why and i asking this. well i have to say something or rather somone has been agitating me recently. i have tried to stay out of his/her way by taking into consideration their feeling. well this person is stressed and busy with life and as a friend i try not bother or disturb him/her. but as in return he/she should also like be thnakful that i am like that. but...no. instend he/she ignores it completely. well i can say i am going to lost my cool soon and it will not be a pretty sight. anyway i am not in the habit of showing who i am pissed with so don bother guessing. anyway i always don't ask him/her for favours but when i do, he/she, just snaps and talks in an irrtated way....I HATE THAT...pls...don't make me hate you. anyway yah just wanted to say this.
CHOWS~
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SNYO's concert
hello everyone,
just cam eback from SNYO rehearsal. well today the Gadfly Suite arrived and it is dame nice man.i think it will be a good concert man. anyway addictional info, this will be a singapore premier. he ehee the pressure is on man. the horn section is sounding great. i would say the Mozart 25 is more difficult then the gadfly. sigh. i shall work hard man. this must be a great concert. anyway yah thats all for no hee hee
CHOWS~
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Friday, April 21, 2006
Schools mearly over.
HEllo ppl
well handed in most of my work already..no left with meaningless portfolios. sigh. anyway yeaterday had SNYO rehearsal and i think its gettig better. i love mozart!!! hee hee so much love of music in it anyway SNYO is now playing Mozart symphony 25, one of the lesser known g minor symphony. anyway the orchestra sounds dry now but i a, sure it will be better. hee hee
anyway nothinelse to blog now so yah
CHOWS~
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Its coming to an end....
Here now in school early in the morning... this has become a daily routine for me and many of my schoolmates. i see my classmates coming to school to do porfolios, last minute touch up on projects, essays, and practicing for recital. all the stress all the noise and all the action in school...its breath taking. i am ending my year 2 in like 3 weeks... i am happy but sad that my life in NAFA is coming to an end. its was just like yesterday i feel that i just became a year 2 student. sigh. one more year and all of us may go separate ways. that is quite sad. after two years or three years of strugggling through assignments, essays, recitaks, performances, bicthing, gossips, Jolly pong, tea sessions, prata, blogging, shopping for penghuines' GF's clothes, porjects, homework, bad PS days, BAD attitude days...etc. are we or rather am i ready to forget all this or even put it aside?? i don't know. maybe eventuallly we have to.
to all my classmate...and schoolmates ...."Keep going all the way...we are nearly the end of the academic year. we can make and support each other. we can all get through this hee hee" like so emo right.... i know. but seriously i think i can't make it in school without the support ( or bitching and DIS-couragment) from my calssmates and schoolmates...Especially the VoGue VoGue GanG.... hee hee oh yah update....WE FOUND OUR VoGue VoGue CARD hee hee!!!!!!1
anyway i saw H like a few times last week... feelings overload man. i mean i have to try to forget H. the reason..weell i'll tell another time.
anyway i am now going to do my DEbussy analysis he ehee
CHOWS~
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Monday, April 10, 2006
Whats is wrong with you?????
this is a story that i do not understand and find trouble understanding it... anyway heres the story... Everytime i go online on MSN and i see this one person, "H", and out of courtesy, i say "Hi/Hello" and yes H sayd the same... but in about like 3-5min H says "sorry gtg BYE!..." well at first i guess H was busy but when it happened so repeatedly i start doubting, and i feel that H does not want to talk to me. well maybe i am thinking too much but it hurts me alot and i would say i am quite affected by it. i want to ask H if H does not like talking to me but what if i am wrong and spoil the friendship......its like a lose lose situation. SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!! i can feel super SUPER affected by this and its really Pissing me off and as if i have not enough things to think about, i have to think about this.... help....ADVICE.......
anyway the NAFA orchestra is starting to sound good i would say...i just hope it continues to be of this standard and go higher. frankly speaking i wouldn't mind playing if it is of this current or higher standard. yup.
anyway exam are nearing, portfolios due, essay not done, recital bearly there, schools fees....??? ....everyday......school and scholo and music....sleep.....7hrs........ what a live.
nights ppl
CHOWS~
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Saturday, April 08, 2006
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Hello....
well...today had orchestra reherasal for like the past few days. anyway it is so boring and i feel that it is no use. i feel that i am wasting my time playing rubbish. i feel stress because i do not know wheather or not i am playing correctly or not cause franlky speaking I DON'T know.
anyway someone asked me a question today "hey alan, are we having sectional or anything like that tomorrow...or anytime soon?" i replied, "hmm no." casue i did not heard of any. then IT said "oh so we are not going to have sectionals of any kind....as always" . i mean like wtf. IT got the nerves to say that as if the sectiuonals would help it.
anyway today Pignix was dame late for orchestra rehearsal and Raja was asking me and i keep on saying i don't know where pignix was...I MEAN I REALLY DON'T KNOW OK!!!!!! then on top of that pignix off his pohone....hmm. yah then Desmond was like dame pissed and now in school desmond vents out his frustrations saying that i am good friends with Pignix why don't i talk to him. wel i did and as much as i can do is TALK. i can;'t force or hold him by the hand and tell he what to do....if you read this desmond...pls understand... ( i ahve nothing against you). i have no control over Pignix. no one has. and to pignix...i have nothing against you too so don't get the wrong idea..and i think you know what to do. and pls do something about it fast. thanks.
well today has been stressful for me mentally i would say. too many tots running through my head sometimes i feel like giving up but i can't. i try to keep myself up in the sky and smile so that i don't feel the agony and stress of sadness. its hard to smile all the time and today i felt tired of trying to lie to the world. but luckily...no one saw...when will this end....
anyway i'll just concentrate in my composition and my gigs i have and hope 3rd would be better.
everything will get better.......i hope....soon.
CHOWS~
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Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Its that time of the academic year.....
Hello peeps...
Well its that time of the academic year man. exams, recitals, homework, presentations, gossips, trouble, bitching etc. well i can see my classmates getting stressed and angry and full of other neagtive feelings. hmmm....did not know that music would be this difficult. well now i know and i am only doing a diploma. just imagine a degree or a Ph.D...sigh. well some of y classmates can do it really well and undersatnd everything. if only i can.
anyway had a conversation with Pignix and Penguine yesterday. well we sort of conluded that our batch is not very well liked...hahahahha like we care. anyway we feel that our batch it unique i our way. and if we get on the nerves of others...WELL THAT IS JUST TOO BAD. anyway i think Michelle is a BITCH and a SLUT.....ahhahhahaha i hate flirtations girls man. looks (if any hee hee) can't get you everyhting ok let alone Boyfriends. i mean stop making yourself so cheap and desparate. and anyway if you want to gossip or bitch...DO IT WITH STYLE and POIS thank you.
well i have reached a point where i can't be bothered with ppl's minor insults and stuff. well anyway the VoGue VoGue GanG rox and no one can do anything about it. hee hee. anyway did you know that a character in the new X-MEN movie has a character name Kitty hee hee Kitty powers.... *MEOW* hee hee.
well i ahve decided what to write for my composition competiton....i'll write for Violin, cello, flute and piano. hee he writing for marcus again...he is a real good flautist and Ike on the violin and the cello for andris..well the pino will pretty much be texturall and accompanying hee hee .
yup thats all for now i guess. can't wait for 9th may man.......SCHOOL'S OVER!!!!!!!!1 YEAH......
sigh but now......STRESSS
CHOWS~
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