Tomorrow is a start of a new day. A new week. For me a new phase in life.

I have been sent to the area of my choice and i am pleased about it. Don't know what the future holds for me. Frankly i'm lost in it. For those of you who now my plans for my future you should understand this post better. I do it cause i need to. It is for the better good for me and above all my family. I am doing so that my mum can rest easy and not stress herself out even more. I do it so that she can dream too.

I should start acting my age and stop dreaming. Dreaming that i can study in Germany. Dreaming that i can play with a wonderful German ensemble. Dreaming that i can be someone. I have pulled my head out of the clouds and realised that it is just a dream. The reality is, my mum can't support me. I know some of you say it is cheaper nowdays and all. i appreciate it and all. But seriously I can't. The Academy was a nightmare on its own. Its just a matter of weather you knew or not.

Seeing my friends going all over the world to study makes me feel happy for them. Yet envious. Some of us were born with a Silver spoon, others not.

Oh well where ever live and God takes me I will except. Only He knows best for me.

I hope you understand.

A new Day. A new Week. A new Chapter.

CHOWS~

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P.O.P Oh!!!

So happy that it is finally over. 6 long months of training.

Awaiting my next stage.

BAND BAND BAND!!!

Pic and details will be updated soon. now sleepy.

CHOWS~

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the end is near and i can't help but say "I can't believe i came so far with this journey". I started PARADISE scared and i told myself i don't want to make too close friends in here. but i did. I made two very good friends. friends that have helped me through this tough and long journey. The feelings inside me is hard to put it down in words. Words that can only be expressed in emotions.

How will i feel in my last few days at PARADISE. Sad, happy, angry, tired etc. I would thing more of sad. I hate saying good byes and yet i have to. It was an amazing journey of self discovery and self upgrading. I have gain alot in this 6 months. Most obviouse being the fact that i lost alot of weight. I am very proud of myself in doing so and i am not shy in telling that to ppl. reason, when you have been fat for al your life and for once you get to be normal, its any amazing feeling, a feeling that can only be understood if you had gone through it. pls understand.

well i have a few free days coming up and lots of activities planned up. I'll update more this week. Pics too. hahhaa

4 more Days!!!!!!

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