This is by far the worst most sucky Christmas ever. I HATE CHRISTMAS TO THE MAX...well not including the spiritual obligations like going to church etc. I just feel so screwed up this christmas. nothing seems to be going right and i don't seem to have the christmas spirit in me this time round.

Last year my Dad passed away, this year my Grandma was in the hospital for like a week and celebrating is just not right when things like this happen. I just did not feel the joy and happiness i usually do when it is December. I feel so weak and bored. On top of that this was the period i lost a close friend and all the memories keep coming back and haunting me each night. To a peace myself i have written a piece in memory of my friend. To be played by my friend Clare next year. I hope it will be nice.

I did my best this Christmas to meet up with friends which i have not seen in a while. I met my BMT friends and had a NAFA Class gathering, went out with my "Alumni" friends. I am sort of looking forward to next year. I wish to make the next Xmas a spectacular one and no way am i going to let anything stop me.

I feel that i am too nice to people and i also have to take people's crap and be their shit bin. When i decide to be an evil person everyonelse says stuff like, "i don like you this way" or "can you stop it" etc. but when they are having a bad day, i dare say that i do my best to make you feel better or at the very least, not annoy you further. I think i should be a mean person and not care about other ppl's feeling. why should I... I am freakin' pissed about it.

I'm looking forward to a brighter and better year next year. i want to REALLY do things that i have not done before and to the best of my abilities LIVE LIFE to the fullest.

Christmas can't get any worst!!!! Apart from the gathering and outings i had, the only other thing i enjoyed was going on to youtube and listening to christmas carols and those less common ones too.

Well nothing else for this SUCKY XMAS....

SEEYA!

Me and Max Cripe (Principal Horn)

Me and Col. Colburn..just love his unifrom..so classic and eye-catching.

Section with Col. Colburn

After this concert was the TPO concert. Playing Beethoven's Symphony no.9 with a Japanese Chourus. I tot it was not too bad for so little reherasals. I mean knwoing TPO, they usually have many reherasals for such a large work. I guess due to time and other factors. I am pretty happy with my 4th Horn Solo. I finally manage to overcome that.

My artistic shot of the Cello Section during sectional Me and Clarence haveing dinner

Me and joyce and hui Qi hahaa crazy gals..

THe Horn Section hmmm and clarinets.. haha

And of course me and Mr. Lim hahaI reallty enjoyed these two projects and i must say i learnt alor. Looking forward to more.

Well i have joined back SNYO and it sure brings back lots of memories. good and bad ones. haha. If only my batch was there. haha. now is a new group and i feel extra old now haha. oh well looking forward to a good musical year next year. I wish to do at least one concerto next year wth an orchestra or a band. would be a good learning experience for me. hee hee.

more updates to come...

CHOWS~