Thursday, May 18, 2006
Finally updating
hello dear readers,
well it has been a long time since i updated ha ha. well there have been many long and late night rehearsals and i hardly have time to come to school and cheak mail and nblog. well today i mangaed to wake up earlier to come and blog haha lame i know.
well got a few thinngs on my mind rrecently i would say.
well i am not sure how many ppl know about the child prodigy See Ian Ike's issuse wiht his deferment but heres what i have to say. Firstly this is a country built on human labour and resources. all males born in this contry must eventually serve their NS as part of their duty to their country. All Ike was asking that it be defered so as to be able to pursue a life long, one-in-a-lifetime oppurtunuity of studying with the greats at Curtis institue of Music in the US. Such talent is truly RARE in this country so why is the govermentnot seeing this??? he will carry the naitions name with him and be a great musician and an ambassdor to the world. What is the point of building an arts city, and "Durian", concerts, arts festival when there is no solid support of the art or should i say MUSIC in particular. such talent should fly into the world and be someone great. Ike truly has a God given Gift that many musican only dream to have. yet the humblness is not far behind this young person. MINDEF should truly consider his deferment, for the sake of this coutry and for MUSIC and MUSICIAN in SIngapore.
anywya musican will tell you that, it takes hard work and long hours of practice to perfect our art. and art form that is slowly fading in Singapore.
anyway another thought in my mind was about Gays and Lesbians in this world. well i would like to just say that, THEY ARE HUMANS TOO!!!! i mean why do ppl look at them differently. they have eyes, ears, a brian, nose, heart etc. just like every other hum,an being. well i was thinking about this because of how one of my friends said to a buch of ppl who were very "wrong" . hmm. well i would testify this "Gays and Lesbians are one of the Best freinds you'll ever meet in your life." and i stand by what i say no matter what. causei have wondeful friends that are like this. i don't have a problem with it at all just do tell me and extreme stuff hee hee.
well recently i have taken a emaotional journey. one that i regret taking. I have been thinking about H too much man. even as much as i try to avoid H and thinking about H, H just haunts me. before i sleep , i see H in my mind, the momenst i wake up i think H. WHY!!?!?!?!?!! i did not ask for this yet i am so deep in this. as if it cannot get worst, the Musical i am playing for, "MAn of Letters" is a love story that is very similar to my life and how i feel. i can'tr help but feel the meaning of the text and songs of this musical. its really hard to play and hold in your feelings. H makes me feel happy everytime i see H. but yet i do not wnat to spoil it by telling her. hmmm sigh. i just want to forget H and get on with my life. i know its not possible. i rather keep this distance and safe that H is there when i need her better then H avoiding me. sigh sigh triple sigh. Why is it so difficult to forget someone you are so in love with. everytime H talks to me or gets close, i feel this hevenly warmth in H's hands and eyes. it just brigthens up my life and keeps me alive. H is the best thing that has happened so far. somtimes i try forgeting H but soomthing tells me for the back of my head "you know you can't forget H, so why try to forget." hmm... well i am so confused and stressedover this.
and if anyone is curious, H is not very hot looking babe. i look for the chracter and heart. H has a good heart, full of love, compassion and care for the ppl around her. and most of all an undying passion for music. H is so perfect and that i feel crimpled when i stand next to H. sigh. Love sucks man...manybe thats why it last so long. sigh. H.
well thats all for now. i'll upodate when i can yah.
CHOWS~
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