Sunday, May 21, 2006
I feel like dying
well today is the last day for the Man of Letters musical and i am feeling the meaning of the musical. this one week has brought me both sadness and happiness. in waht way i can't say but it did. i have also gotten to know my SNYO friends better. like Hatim's background and his life etc. during alll those car rides...(thnaks man!!!) and also got to know Leen better hahahaa she reminds me of a friend i had a long time ago but due to misunderstandings, parted. all the bitching sessions and eating and all the silly snap games hahahaa cool. then got to know Ike better too. turns out he's not that bad and not a snob as i tot he was. hmmm i know that we'll all see each other during reheasal and al but i don't think it will be as close as now. hmmm. i must sayni have grown fond of these guys and it would be difficult to "part" he ehee i know so Emo right. but i am.
anyway this musical was fun and i do not regret taking it. it has given me something to do in the holidays ahaha no lah. through the story, i think i am like Ming. i do not dare tell the one i love how much i love her. hmmm. and also Ming, in the musical, only tells here after many years. sigh. I don't think i'll ever tell H how i feel mainly because H is attached and also too good for me. hahahahaa I might tarnish her image you see. anyway H is leaving the country soon to study abroad. I am happy for her and also i will not think about her so much and also i can forget this love i have for her. hmmm.. this has ispired me to write a new piece for the SNYO compo competition. I can't wait to get started. hahahaa.
H is really special to me. and i can't denie that. I may not tell her but i can always admire her from far, far and in a safe distance so as not to frigthen her away.
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