Thursday, October 12, 2006
Don't feel like doing anything....
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oh no I'm going into the mood of not doing anything. I don't feel like going out. I don't feel like doing the arrangment. I don't feel like going to the dinner on monday. Just want to be alone. I need to find myself again. Find myself amongst the confusion in my mind. i feel like giving up whatever i'm doing.
I need a break....A break from everyone. Is that possible...not sure.
Miss the days where things were normal. the days where everything and anyhting goes. now it is barriered by the thoughts of ppl. everything becomes a restriction. everything needs to be organised and planned to sligtest detail. Why? where is fun? the funWAS in the fact where we just be ourselves and let our hair down. there was a time where we could (like a friend of mine said) stop and smell the roses. now everything is moving so fast. too fast. i can't catch my breath. Slower pls...slower. "No....you keep up or we'er leaving you behind" this is as fast as i can go... any faster and i'll fall.
There was a time where you did not think too much...a time where you went with the flow of day to day life. to lived your life according to the day and not by planning it. nowadays you are like a walking organiser..planning your every move. I can't keep up with that. you tied up your hair and and tied my down. let your hair down and free me. I need to know you again, the old one. the one i liked to be with. now I force a smile on my face so as to please you. up till now you have no clue. when will this acting end. I tried to fit myself into your "new" exterior. i tried. i really did. but i am weaken by every new "trick" you pull. this is as far as i can pull myself to. I can't keep up with you.
I miss the times where we would just sit down and have a care-free chat. so strings attached, no deadlines, no time limit...just pure endless enjoyement of the company you gave me. you'er a complex person...and i have no problems with that....you are you and I can't meet with your "expectations".
Sorry for all the problems i caused you
Sorry for the times you had to deal with my temper.
Thanks for that listening ear
Thanks for that one Amazing converstation we had
Thanks fro being a friend.
Sorry i can't
I have given up....and i have to pick myself up. no is there to help me....no one can that is.
CHOWS~
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