Saturday, April 08, 2006
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Hello....
well...today had orchestra reherasal for like the past few days. anyway it is so boring and i feel that it is no use. i feel that i am wasting my time playing rubbish. i feel stress because i do not know wheather or not i am playing correctly or not cause franlky speaking I DON'T know.
anyway someone asked me a question today "hey alan, are we having sectional or anything like that tomorrow...or anytime soon?" i replied, "hmm no." casue i did not heard of any. then IT said "oh so we are not going to have sectionals of any kind....as always" . i mean like wtf. IT got the nerves to say that as if the sectiuonals would help it.
anyway today Pignix was dame late for orchestra rehearsal and Raja was asking me and i keep on saying i don't know where pignix was...I MEAN I REALLY DON'T KNOW OK!!!!!! then on top of that pignix off his pohone....hmm. yah then Desmond was like dame pissed and now in school desmond vents out his frustrations saying that i am good friends with Pignix why don't i talk to him. wel i did and as much as i can do is TALK. i can;'t force or hold him by the hand and tell he what to do....if you read this desmond...pls understand... ( i ahve nothing against you). i have no control over Pignix. no one has. and to pignix...i have nothing against you too so don't get the wrong idea..and i think you know what to do. and pls do something about it fast. thanks.
well today has been stressful for me mentally i would say. too many tots running through my head sometimes i feel like giving up but i can't. i try to keep myself up in the sky and smile so that i don't feel the agony and stress of sadness. its hard to smile all the time and today i felt tired of trying to lie to the world. but luckily...no one saw...when will this end....
anyway i'll just concentrate in my composition and my gigs i have and hope 3rd would be better.
everything will get better.......i hope....soon.
CHOWS~
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