This is by far the worst most sucky Christmas ever. I HATE CHRISTMAS TO THE MAX...well not including the spiritual obligations like going to church etc. I just feel so screwed up this christmas. nothing seems to be going right and i don't seem to have the christmas spirit in me this time round.

Last year my Dad passed away, this year my Grandma was in the hospital for like a week and celebrating is just not right when things like this happen. I just did not feel the joy and happiness i usually do when it is December. I feel so weak and bored. On top of that this was the period i lost a close friend and all the memories keep coming back and haunting me each night. To a peace myself i have written a piece in memory of my friend. To be played by my friend Clare next year. I hope it will be nice.

I did my best this Christmas to meet up with friends which i have not seen in a while. I met my BMT friends and had a NAFA Class gathering, went out with my "Alumni" friends. I am sort of looking forward to next year. I wish to make the next Xmas a spectacular one and no way am i going to let anything stop me.

I feel that i am too nice to people and i also have to take people's crap and be their shit bin. When i decide to be an evil person everyonelse says stuff like, "i don like you this way" or "can you stop it" etc. but when they are having a bad day, i dare say that i do my best to make you feel better or at the very least, not annoy you further. I think i should be a mean person and not care about other ppl's feeling. why should I... I am freakin' pissed about it.

I'm looking forward to a brighter and better year next year. i want to REALLY do things that i have not done before and to the best of my abilities LIVE LIFE to the fullest.

Christmas can't get any worst!!!! Apart from the gathering and outings i had, the only other thing i enjoyed was going on to youtube and listening to christmas carols and those less common ones too.

Well nothing else for this SUCKY XMAS....

SEEYA!