Tuesday, December 29, 2009
In Loving memory
Well today the 28th of dec, i feel the sorrow i felt a couple of years back. The lost of a dear friend. A friend which i could always count on for emotional and physical support. I friend i so dearly miss. I did not even get to say good bye to you. You left me here to see you go. To remember you in memories. I miss your voice, your laughter, your lame jokes that always made my day. I miss everything about you. Even your horrible attitude to me sometimes.
I guess it is really too late to tell you all that i feel for you. I can only now tell you in my prays to you. I sometimes lay on my bed, thinking of all the good and bad times we've had and how i wished i had more of that. Crying to myself in regret. regret in everything. regret not telling you how i truly felt about you. You are now happier and peaceful. and that makes me happy too. I miss you smile my dear friend!!!
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I guess no one reads blogs anymore. with the increasing popularity of FB, it is hard to keep thoughts private like in a blog. FB, once you say the wrong thing, the whole WWW knows. sians.
The memories in this blog is the sole reason why i do not want to shut it down. I live on memories.
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I feelings inside of me right now are really all mixed up. Good, bad, happy, angry, sad, joyous, frustrated, disappointed etc. I regret doing certain things really. I know i have always been telling my students and close friends, always do things with no regrets. but here i am having tons of it. Sometimes i regret knowing you. My life has turned upside down. You may not feel like you affect me much, but you do. I don't tell ppl such stuff cause they probably thing i'm nuts. you are better off without me in your life, hindering your progress to greater excellence. I'm so so proud of you thus far. and i'm honored to have grown up and known you. I feel that you can truly change the world. Theres more that i would love to say but can't.
I will leave you now. Leave you alone.
Thanks for the memories.
CHOWS~
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