Thursday, November 29, 2007
Christmas is just around the corner...
Christmas is just around the corner and i am feeling the Christmas cheer in me alot. Love Christmas alot although i don't enjoy it every year. Not sure why really. Came home yesterday for my 1/2/day off. I took a cab from the ferry terminal and during the cab ride on the radio they were playing "Have yourself a Merry little Christmas". The version they played was very beautiful and made me feel like it was Christmas eve already. Amazing how some voices can really make you dream endlessly.
Anyway I had the choice to take my Day-off or not. So i did cause i needed to get out of PARADISE. Get away from ppl whom i thought were friends. 5+ months of sleeping, bathing, eating, chatting, struggling together was all a waste og time. Before I went into PARADISE, ppl told me, "You will make your best friends during this part of PARADISE" I tried to believe but at the back of my head, i was saying NO. True enough, my so called "Friends" true out to be just ppl who just talk and sit with you only when they need you. Upset? Yes i am. for those who know me well, i take friendship seriously. in PARADISE i only have 7 really close friends now i only have 4. I want to get out of PARADISE now cause day in day out i am sad. i used to be happy and cheery, now i feel very upset at times and have to hide it. cause ppl will; say why so emo so cici and all. I miss my other friends alot.
God help me in Times of Despair
God help me when i am blind
God help me My heart is aching
Please grant me peace
13days to go!!
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