had a conversation with a friend today on how our teachers make us feel better in bad situation. like on the days you just can't play well and feel like giving up, our teachers are always there to say the right stuff to make things better. not sure how their simple words can mean so much and make things better. amazing. When you are nervous for a performance or and exam, their words will just somehow put you at ease. atleast for me. My teacher has made me the muscian i am today.
I remember once i had a performance for Brass class. that was in year 2 sem1. I played very badly and i just felt terrible and just broke down infront of everyone. I just felt that i let down my teacher and wasted his time teaching me. I know that he knows waht had happen in the class but he does not say a word about it. I guess he encourages me in other ways. When i got the POTO gig, he was very happy. then when it started and i made so many mistakes, i just felt really bad. I felt like as if i wasted my 3 years of learning from him. I felt like i let him down. Even now a i type, i still feel that awkward feeling of disappointment on myself. After some shows i would just run away from the ppl i usually go home with and go home alone. I would at times just cry silently in the bus.
I miss my teacher and i like my teacher alot. I have learnt a few things from this POTO gig, to listen at all times, and be alert at all times cause anything can happen in a split second. and the fact that i have not learnt enought from my teacher. I guess it goes to show that learning is a never ending journey.
This entry is to aknowledge all the wonderful teachers that i have learnt many valuble things from, Tang Xiao Ping, Zhang Jin Min, Gao Jian (my first horn teacher), Elaine Yeo, Jin Ta, Jacomo, Fredi, Dennis Wick, Gerd Seifret, Berry Tuckwell. sorry if i missed out any.
and of course to my wonderful teacher Mr. Han Chang Chou...cool cuflinks hahahaa
CHOWS~
