been thinking lately about how other react to a certain situation where they become the victim. confused? I'll explain. Well it is human nature to say mean things weather or not you mean it is another topic on its own. some ppl say mean stuff to me and it really hurts inside. but just because i don't react to it does not immediately mean that i don't feel offended. I keep it inside cause reacting will blow the small problem into a big one. i know my self and my tongue is not good. thus i refrain from shooting back insults. now when the tables are turned and i shoot at some ppl then they feel the pain and get so emotional about it. They start showing their pissed off face or fight back with insults too. NOTE: I'm not referring to any one or any particular situation. Just tot about it. Anyway, I don't see why I have to hide what i feel inside. well maybe i do know why, cause i don't want to hurt others. something i've learnt through experience is that the tongue is not a very nice thing. it can cause equal amounts of hurt and joy. Sometimes ppl say things by accident. like out of anger or slip of the tongue but when it is persistent and regular, then of course it means something.
Enlightened:
- I have come to realise that you are not a very nice person. I tot you were. your true COLOURS have shown and I'm sadden by it.
- remember person Y? I now got the answer. She is not that one for me. She is Rasict. That is a good enough reason to hate and erase her out of my life. Slowly but surely.
Random:
- Should I be angry? Yes. Cause as a human i have feelings and i am entitled to feeling mad about it.
- I'm not obligated to tell anyone what i feel or think. I don't need to.
- 1 week left. 8 shows more to go. and Phantom of the Opera is over. What do I feel about it? Mixed. but that will be on a different post.
foound some old photos of myself and old friends. I put them up soon. it also gives me a chance to use a scanner hahaha. Yes its my first time using it. Excited. hahaha
Here are some over due photos hahaa.
this harp player was actually busking in the Streets of Vienna. She is so pretty and not to metion she plays well too. hahahaa
This is part of my Horn section in SNYO, Me, Corwin and Qian Hui. in Vienna 2005. sigh miss Vienna alot.
The Chamber Sounds
Rag time @ Esplanade Concourse 2007. it was fun hahhaa fun to dress up too. hee hee
Thats all for now. CHOWS~
