Saturday, March 24, 2007
Correct words
Well yesterday was the first show for POTO. Felt very Demoralised after the first act. Not sure why, i guess its becasue i keep missing notes or not giving a good enough sound. Feel very low that everyonelse is doing well and have a bright future which they can actually see. Feel like it is impossible to archieve my dream. Now thinking of studying in those wonderful school overseas is becoming really nothing more then a dream.
What comes easily for others, i take alot more effort to do. I can't give excuses for my mistakes cause indeed it is truly carless mistakes. sigh. not feeling the best of spirits these days.
Somestimes bottling up the things you truly feel and think inside of you is the best. I learnt this the hard way and have learnt my lesson. I should not open my mouth to tell what i really feel cause after past events it is quite obvious we are of different worlds and think differently. i'll learnt to shut myself more from you. It is for the better of the Friendship.
I wanted to get friend a present cause i tot that he/she deserves it. I was thinking about for a long time. never told anyone, never even mentioned it until now. somthing was stopping me from doing so and i was wondering what and why. it is hard to put it in words what i feel about this. so won't until i have the CORRECT words.
Problems keep mounting more and more, not sure how much more i can take. not sure if i can keep it in long enough. not sure how long i will last. I'm reaching my breaking point. I just have to hold on a while longer.
CHOWS~
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