Monday, February 26, 2007
Seems impossible
as the days go by and the dates get closer, I'm starting to feel very insecure about my recital. I am feel like giving up and just putting away what i have done. feel like i cannot make it. Watching wonderful performers like Yo-yo Ma, Cecilia Bartoli, Valentina Lisista, Vladimir Feltsmen etc, make you feel really small in this vast musical world. It is a wonder how they carry the music with such meaning and life. Something that is so hard to do yet easily accepted by the ears. How do they do it? Yes i know hard work etc. but there is more. I believe its their passion and love of music that they have that drives them to create miracles on stage. Yes wondrous magic with just notes.
How How how how....
Each time i play i feel insecure more and more. Nothing is going way i want it to. What do I want to express??? I'm still searching for that answer. Some ppl just do it with such great ease and grace. They just have it i guess.
Music is a Language, a language i still do not understand. A language i am learning and trying to understand. Failing along the way....
"I need a listener not a person to tell me what to do..."
CHows!
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