Recently my emotions have be going on a wild rage. Finding harder and harder to control it. Finding harder to hide it.
Why hide it?
For the safety of others of course. I come across ad a person that does not make sense, dose not have a clue of what is happening. A person that things for himself. Well think what you want, I don't really care. But yes for your safety, and your friendship, i will not let you see my true self. It is only a matter of time before all is over. I think. Or is there more i need to endure.
Why endure something so unpleasant?
For the goodness i gain out of it after the long and painful wait.
Sophisticated, Elegant, Poise, style....you think you are. No no no. I don't think so. You are the number one person i need to get out of my life. cause i have and am still tolerating all the crap and shit you give me. I will wait for when you are at your weakest, i will wait for when you need me the most...at that very moment, i will stab you in the heart and let you bleed, bleed like there is no tomorrow. Ever since that unfaithful day, I have changed my impression of you, I now know who you really are, a true cunning fox in sheep's clothing. I regret your friendship and i will correct that in the most merciless way possible
Behide my smile there is another person, a person that is truly me. Hard to except yes, impossible no. A person that i sometimes let out. A person i let some ppl see.
Am i living a real life Masquerade...Yes I am. aren't we all. We're all in the same party, just that we don't know who is behide which Mask. Judge me all you want, I'll do my best to not show you I'm troubled by it. But do forgive me when i do the same to you.
Me plunging in self-pity..... That's what you think. Its my Blog and its my FUCKING PROBLEM!!!!!! SO FUCK OFF IF YOU HAVE A FUCKING PROBLEM!!!!!!
Apology to those who are disturbed by that.
I try to be the best Friend i can but seems like i always fail at it. oh well.
Know thy self.
what you are VS what you THINK you are. You are obviously living in a world of lies, thinking of your superior intelligence and capabilities.... well then how come you are so not successful in what you are doing...or rather, TRYING to do.
Sorry to all...above all sorry to myself for neglecting who i truly am.
