Saturday, December 09, 2006
CHristmas is around the CLIFF!!!!
hey,
well it has been a long time sice i blogged. the main reason is i have been really busy in school. there is just so much to do and so little time. This December is not a good one. Everyone is preparing for christmas whilist I am here doing school work, arranging, practicing attending rehersals, teaching....sigh. All I want for Christmas is Christmas.
I have too many things to do and for the first time in my life i felt that 24 hours a day is just not enough. I try my best to make ends meet. but i'm just killing myself. I wake up every morning at 5am, go to school at 645am. start work at 7am then 9am school lessons start. after 6pm i stay in school for rehersals till 11pm. i reach home at 12midnight. I sleep at 1am. and the whole cycle repeats again. how much of this can i take???!?!?!?!! i need sleep i need to rest!!!! I need a break. I can only rest after the 22nd of Dec. sigh. I have reached the point of breaking.
On top of all this i have to deal with people's problem with me. As if my hectic life is not enough, you had to come into the picture.
This is a blog response to you:
Everything was fine. Everything was good. until....you had to open your mouth and say things. If you had, at all, paid attention to my character feelings, you would not have the mistaske you did. You were someting to me you know. You were special. but i'm glad that now you are no more then a normal person around me. sorry. sorry for even thinking that there was a special friend in you. You brounght it upon yourself and I can correct it. but i don't want to...cause it is not worth my effort. You are like a Rainbow with no pot of gold at the otherside. I am grateful i don't see you everyday. I would have exploded. You need help in the way you 'THINK' of others. has it ever occured to you that people are DIFFERENT!!!!!! has it ever occured to you that it is the uniquness in people that make you want to be friends in the first place. Grow up. YOu are not that perfect...as you claim.
I missed you once. now i don't. i have managed to convice my weak heart to give up and forget you as a friend. It is a matter of time before you realise what you did really afffected me alot. still i don't hate you. just not close to you.
End of blog response
Anyway i would like to take this time to say SORRY to everyone. sorryrif i have not bneen free, been very cranky, been a totaly bitch, been silent. i hope you understand that i am a confused person and vey busy this month.
Will update soon i hope. hee hee
CHOWS~
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