yes ppl this one of those post where i talk about the things in my mind. So if you are bored with all this then i think you can stop reading here...hhhaahahah
I can't wait to get out school man. Manily because I can't wait to shut some people out of my life. I can't wait to kick these ppl out of my mind and leave me in peace. I would say some people on school only give me misery. well to all say and think what you want...I feel this way and i can't help it. Well knowing a certain person well in school was a big mistake...yes one of the BIGGEST BIGGEST mistakes i have ever made. I only brought upon myself, misery and sleepless nights. I should not treat myself like this cause i deserve better. I am so sorry I have to pretend to be a friend now but I don't want you to know now cause then i have to go through the trouble of avoiding you, not talking to you and all...arghh....sorry no time for that. well I won't say you have been all that bad...well just that our characters can't match no matter how much I try. I have come across ppl with many face and chracters and I always try my best to suit everyone and do well at it. but for you...i tried and am feeling pointless trying. oh well. Friends come and go.
Frankly i am only close to about 3 or 4 ppl. not more the rest are good friends. well too much of good things is bad for you.
I don't need ppl in my life that take me for granted and above all think of me as someone or somethingelse.
I had a close friend in Secondary school. Well she was my Jr. in band and i got to know her wehn she was Sec.1 . we were good friends.."were"...we talked alot and met up in school everyday. talked about band, school, weird teachers, freinds, irritating ppl, funny happenings, crushes, shopping etc. you could say she was like a "little sis" to me. Well this friendship did not go far. we never really went out. only after band then go for dinner of lunch at the near by coffee shop. i don't remember an occassion where we went window shopping, or went to the city etc. Hmm not sure we went to a movie or not. oh well my point being that the friendship was only alive in school and the near bay areas of school. and yes i tolerated. oh well anyway I felt that our friendship got worst when she started likeing this guy in her class and she started to drift. she then always spent alot of time with he good friend (a girl) and her BF and her classmates. well i guess it is jealousy but in any case i felt neglected. Having a stround head, i never talked to her about it. and yes we drifted further and further.... until now i bearly know her or even remember anyhting worth remembering of that friendship. oh...that is one thing i remember..... everythime we argued or fought, she will always like avoid me and not even talk to me. and everytime i have to say sorry first even if it is not my fault. well she writes letters to me and always says, "i scared to talk to you... that is why i did not call you.." I was like...????? sigh. no point haveing a friend who is constanling afraid of you. well times have past and we both have our own lifes.....I am glad we are not friends anymore....it was not worth it. Why i suddenly talk about her? well i came across a picture of both of us and i was reflecting on what happend and this is my conclusion.
After that incident i hated to have friends who were girls..I tot they were so petty and unreasonable. so sensitive and not truthful at all. that was until i met L and my life changed.
well there is more but i guess i shall not waste time talking about it.
SAMSUNG sux!
H sux!
L sux!
You sux!
I can't wait to run away somewhere and start a new life and erase all these ppl from my life.....you ppl make me get more wrinkle and thus look older. I just need a few goood friends around me and I'm happy.
Will i be happy...YES VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!!
CHOWS~
