Thursday, September 07, 2006
Don't know what is happeneing to me...
Sigh lots of work to do in school. well not really just that i have no mood to start on it. I have been trying but always can't finish. I have Composition to finish, History articles, Composer Resume, History presentation, Instrumental and vocal portfolio, concert attendance portfolio, etc....I have my recital coming up and i am nowhere near ready. Phil winds perfromance, PCO concert and rehearsal, SNYO rehersal on top of this i have much other things to think about. I may look free but i am always thiking of doing my work but never finish it. sigh sigh. feels like year 1 once again.
it was must easier when the previous batch was here. atleast can do work then chit-chat then go teh-tarik then come and do work. sigh, i miss them all. nowadays school is somwhat not interesting to me. trying my best not to fall apart in school, trying best to hold my tongue, trying my best to be patient, trying my best to be a friend. Trying and trying but always failing.
as the days past its getting tougher and tougher...
how long can i go on...go on being sane...
not sure how the others do it man but i feel dame backward in my work. die i have yet to study counterpoint.
I was reading the messgaes this friend "Samsung" sent me. Samsung sends me messages that are very nice, nice to read and full of meaning. but for some reason, that meaning is fading with each passing day. I kept certain msg because it was nice and sincere and above all true to evey word...or so i tot. nowadays Samsung is no longer the samsung i use to know. either me or Samsung is or has changed. yeaterday i had a reality cheak with myself, the messages Samsung sent were what Smasung felt at that moment but not necessary all the time. Sigh. Words which i looked at eveyday turn into worthless dust. The words have no meaning, no substance, no truth just plain words, plain old SMS. nothing much and yet i was blinded my it. well I have deleted these 'Words' i feel terrible now feel like a fool. I miss Samsung...the Old Samsung not the now Self centred Samsung, the silent Samsung, the cold Samsung.
I wonder how H is doing overseas...must be having fun...
anyway i gtg "try" to do work...
CHOWS~
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