Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Understood my language for a brief moment....
Yesterday went to Miffie's and Pip-pip's house. For the first official time i heard my piece being played. I have to thankf Pippip for trying my piece and playing it. THNAKS!!!!! well it was not all what i expected but i guess i just wrote rubbish again....yup...yet again. Ike played my piece well..... (hahaa no my piece is priceless haahhaa). I have to say he captured my intentions and brought out the music well. I liked it but for some reason it was not correct.
well heard the whole piece and as i sat there listening, for a brief moment, I saw Ezabelle (H) in my mind. I saw what inspired me to write this piece, I saw the one that captured my heart and my soul. but it was not long before H vanished. For that brief moment of like 10 seconds, I felt like i could not breath, I felt like i was in heaven, I finally could understand the 'Language' that i wrote and what it ment. All this happened for that moment. Oh how i clearly remember that moment. it was short lifed but a wealth of inspiration and hope i felt in me.
If only i feel that way for the whole piece. If only... I have to admit, I liked my musicians interpretations of my music.
H will leave soon and I am starting to really feel weird and becoming crazy. What will life be without H? different for sure. I guess life goes on and i do hope H does not change much while she's gone. Hmmm if she comes back that is. sigh.
I don't wnat my piece to be performed this friday....not sure why but i just don't want it to be performed. sigh sigh. I do intend to finsh the remaing 3 mvts and maybe rededicate it to another person.... but it would be for Ezabelle forever. ...
thats all for now....
CHOWS~
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