Sunday, October 07, 2007
Afraid to wake up each morning.
Afriad of what the day might be like.
Afriad of Death.
Afriad of finding my life has been turned upside down in a blick of an eye.
Afriad of what my future will be like.
Afriad that i won't be able to smell my future.
Afraid... that is what i feel always.
Feeling secure and problem free in PARADISE. It sickens me when i comes to the day where we get to go home. Home is a place where you feel safe and secure. I don't feel that anymore. I feel worry and sadness. I feel calmness in PARADISE, so much so i want to be there forever. Why am i feeling this way, i don't know. I have no answer to that. Although ppl in PARADISE i irrtating me and annoying me and making me feel bad about myself, i still like to stay there. WHY??? I don't know.
I want to get into band. I'm hoping for only the best man.
I want to fly away, fly away to the Vineyards of Austria. A place where i found peace in my heart. The Air is fresh, fresh with citrus smells, freshly baked bread, rich coffee, and everlasting culture, history and MUSIC. I belong there. If i die, i want to die there.
chows~
65 days to go!!!!
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